sunkissed

YUNA

2012-01-29T11:14:00.003+08:00

Well, I've been longing to talk about Yuna. So...

I see her as a strong woman. Did you know that she went to UK alone to try out her songs? Marketing your songs into a widest scene should be a struggle to most artists song writer. This reminds me of myself when I was 17. I have this eager thing in me, wanted to go to work. Where my dad of course refused to pop a green light. But in the end of the day, I got paid for rm1200 and I was happy enough :) Anyhow, we're not gonna talk about my struggle, but Yuna's.

I don't get it when you people judge her based on appearance alone. Frankly, that's truly not fair. Siapa kita nak jalankan tugas Allah tanpa menyedari betapa naif nya kita berkata- kata tentang dosa agama? Now you tell me. Berpegangan tangan di antara lelaki wanita dan minum arak. Which one is harom? To be true, both are harom. Cuma the Malaysian sees minum arak as harom and pegang tangan as normal. Tapi, bila this one guy upload a picture of him holding a dog on facebook. People's perception towards him terus turned upside down. "Rosak lah mamat ni pegang anjing". Without realizing last weekend dia keluar dating dia pegang tangan gf dia. How cliche. How funny. How naive of you.

At first, I don't really care what you guys said pasal leggings and all. Tapi macam agak semak lah dengar mana2 je orang dok keluar hadis pasal leggings. Come on! I've been listening to this lady since dia free hair lagi. Bukan kah dah cukup bagus dia berhijrah ke berhijab? I ingat lagi masa tu dalam bilik belakang CM tu cuma ada about 30 people. So yeah, to be where she is right now is an achievement.

Kau ada pergi UK sorang2 hantar demo? Do you have this kind of struggle to tell your kids? So shut the fuck up.

Enough said.

p/s: dan aku memang penakut. mengakui cinta kepadamu.

6 minutes

2011-11-02T17:27:00.002+08:00

the thing is, it's weird whenever that very particular perfume reminds me of someone ive been missing. it's weird this song im hearing reminds me of that particular moment. that street, somehow feels close to me when i walk through it. reminding me, ive been on a fight there 6 years ago.

the thing is, im not that pretty or sweet or polite. i can stay for days without washing my face. i dont have that particular routine of facial. i dont care if there's zit on my face. i dont avoid nuts and oily foods just to make sure im in a good shape.

mama: sheena jom?

me: okay 2 mins.

yerp, memang 2 mins pon. put on tshirt and done.

the thing is, im not the type who's in concern of what you think about me. what im wearing. what im saying. my opinion in things. i just dont care. by the way, siapa yang bagitau kau that acid wash jeans dont look good on you? that pale color scarf makes u look sleepy? who sets the standard? i wear what i want. though they give me that one eye. nahhhh i dont care. i realize that, but hey. who cares.

the thing is, im not gonna live my life that way like u want me to be. i think i wasted my 2 years time just to get demotivated. i get nauseous whenever i think of u. i think ive been tortured emotionally. might getting to a point where im gonna puke when i bump into u.

the thing is, take back this voice that i have in my head because u're wasting time. the thing is, im a girl who writes. but i dont anymore. now that i did, this crap came up. hewhewhew.

Please teary tears.

2011-10-05T19:48:00.002+08:00

I question, what life has to offer me. I'm nearly giving up. How generous life is, if I could just lay back as in not thinking of a thing. I feel like shouting. And so I shouted. Yet, the hollow in this heart seems stubborn. I feel sad, empty, and most probably crying. But I didn't to be truth. I need tears to fall down facing gravity. I wanna soak in my own grieve. I want to enjoy the moment, I swear. And that's just against god's will. I'm just not gonna cry my heart out, that's fate. I wonder why. That's one hell of a hard heart I own.

Come as YOU ARE, don't dare to change

outgoing

reliable

musician

honest

outspoken with manners

be there

convincing

kind hearted

family guy

a friend

with passion

love

*I wonder how I lost the love, that's just weird when I really fall head over heals. Prolly, I regret that I let it control me.

2011-04-29T18:31:00.003+08:00

Anything, or everything won't do it. Praying won't do it, hating won't do it, smiling won't do it. Like I don't even tried.

ninoninonino

2010-12-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

tadi kena hon dengan ambulans. tot! bahahaha.
oke bai!

Sore loser just can't accept the fact. Boooooo!

2010-12-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

For the past few days orang Indon dok kecoh sana sini. "Ganyang Malaysia" sana sini. Baca kat group facebook AFF Suzuki Cup 2010 lagi lah menyampah. Amboi bukan main kutuk sana sini. Padahal tak sedar diri jadi maid dan guard gatal kat Malaysia. Omongnya, "pak ampun pak. saya cuma mau cari rejeki untuk anak isteri pak". Dulu masa I kecik rumah I ada maid. Sebab hal permit la apa, kitorang selalu tukar tukar maid. But the worst is, this lady from INDONESIA. Kitorang panggil dia Wak tatau kenapa. Perangaiiiii ya Allah! Mandi tak kunci pintu. Then one day Ayah I tak sengaja masuk toilet time dia mandi. Ayah I yang menjerit. Banyakkkk lagi perangai buruk. But well blog ni bukan nak cerita pasal keburukan orang ye tak. Nak di pendekkan cerita, mama I berhenti kan dia kerja atas alasan kami dah besar :)

Anyway I bukan nak marah marah tapi serious p la google. Indon memang provoke gila gila. Yang group kat Facebook lagi lah. Adoi over reacted sangat! Its not that Malaysian taknak back up negara sendiri. Tapi masing masing malas. Diorang merepek macam takda point. Tiba tiba masuk bab 'batik Indon punya', 'bunuh sedara diorang', ambik pulau diorang. I mean, what the lahhhh. Memang tergelak gelak orang baca. So, its better to just diam aja dari melayan orang bodoh macam ni nanti kita pon jadi bodoh. Macam kita tak cari pasal langsung tup tup dia datang bikin gamat. Benda benda macam ni patut di abaikan aje. Just an entertainment la to be exact bahahaha.

And guess what Malaysia won 3-0!!!!:D

Oh memang dah boleh agak dah pon sebab tatau kenapa I memang ada instint nak menang. Dah excited habes nak pegi tengok bola ni tak pernah pernah I excited macam ni. Tapi mama I tak bagi sobs. Sebab takot nanti Indon jadi tak betul then bunuh bunuh orang -_-". Ok lah. So, I dengan my sisters pon mengisi kekecewaan dengan berjalan jalan di.... Piramid. Mana lagi kan. I tinggal Shah Alam. Kalau tak Jusco, Piramid. Kalau tak piramid, Subang Parade, Empire, Ikea, Curve. Memang tak lah nak pergi sampai ke Mines. Tapi best!:) Pegi tengok tengok make up. Oh benefit nya Flawless compact best sangat! Flawless terus muka I sekarang haha. Lip gloss Za best! Masuk Etude house. 1st time masuk terus borong banyak gilaaaa seriously murah sangat. Semua pon ada discount.

Anyway, that's not the point pon. Dah bebel banyak baru nak cakap sebenarnya tadi tweets pasal Malaysia main laser kat goal keeper Indon sampai tak boleh nak focus. Oh wow hebatnya orang Malaysia? Ala ala sharp shooter gitu. Bahahaha. Nak tergelak pon ada gak. Dah la cam hot topic tweeter like whattttt? Dahla sore loser just can't accept the fact. Indon memang macam tu. Adaaaaa je benda. Congrats la to Malaysian team. Though ramai pemain muda, tapi still manage to win the game. 2nd leg nanti kat Indon I wish u all the best! We can do this. Even korang kalah 5-1 haritu pon, I'm still with u. Tak pernah kutuk2 at all :) MALAYSIA BOLEH!

26th Dec 2004, tsunami in Acheh, Indonesia. Let's take 5 mins of our time today to recite Al Fatihah to those who died. My deepest condolences goes to the family and friends. Allah berhak menarik balik segala nikmat jika kita tidak beringat ingat akan perlakuan buruk kita. So, mind your acts and words before it is too late INDONESIA. Kebetulan, harini 26th Dec 2010. Al Fatihah.

Goji's.

2010-12-07T23:33:00.005+08:00

Someone's turning 21 todayyyyyyyy :)

Happy HAPPY BORNDAY to beloved Nozie Muhamad Nor!
I'm wishing you happiness and joyous moment ahead of you. For you to fill it with your family, friends, and relatives.
Cherish each moment a year ahead because you won't be 21 twice.
I know you'll do just great :) because you're meant to be great!hihi.

Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki, amin.
Semoga semakin handsome, tough, putih, kelakar, dan romantis :p

I love youuuuuuu bam bam!

DANCE as though no one is watching, SING as though no one can hear you, LOVE as though you had never been hurt before, LIVE as though heaven is on earth.

Coffee Bean, 2009.

Kesayangan yang paling disayangi :)

Mumbling.

2010-11-21T21:07:00.003+08:00

To tell you the truth, it's getting really annoying when I've started talking to a friend of yours and out of nowhere, you guys becoming this best of friend in the world. I mean, I'm not taking granted on talking to him because of you. It's him that I like the most. He's amazing. Dah.

Jom support Malaysian movie from now on!

2010-11-14T01:59:00.005+08:00

:')

sukanyaaaaa tengok bila sepasang kekasih sangat menjaga cinta antara mereka. Lagi lemah jantung kalau si lelaki yang lagaknya nakal, tapi tak tak malu untuk pamerkan rasa cintanya pada si perempuan. Actually nak cakap pasal Lagenda Budak Setan! ehehehe.

Well, I don't really support Malaysian movie to be honest. Boo you Sheena! But at least I've the guts to admit it. Back up diri sendiri ;p Memang masa yang tepat untuk I nonton movie ini setelah sekiannnnnn lama korang gembar gembur kan kat I. Tapi apekan daya tak terbuka pula hati nak tengok sampai lah malam ni. Sebab apa nak tengok malam ni? Sebab rasa nak bersendirian -____- ok tiba tiba emosi kat blog agagaga.

Never thought in a million ways, this typa movie made me cried sobs. The only movie yang I nangis is The Time Traveler's wife. Satuuuuu je kan. I kan kuat haha. Oke tipu actually I kuat nangis. Stress pon nangis. Fed up pon nangis sobs. Just nak cakap, hm, Malaysian movies cam dah upgrade lah. Tengok tak err I tatau ah terms ape dia guna untuk camera focus or ...... Bla bla bla memang tatau pon nak cakap cane. hahahaha! Oke tak kelakar.

Macam tersentuh sikit la hati I tengok cerita ni. How deep is his love that he had for her. Not only that, did I mention how good looking is Farid Kamil? Like finally baru I realise? Korang siap dah tampal poster kat belakang pintu kan. Siap dah berhabuk kan. I looser kan. Anyway, not forgetting Lisa Surihani my honey. Eh haritu kan I pegi Jimmy Shanley kahwin kan kat KLCC Convention Centre kan. Yang tempat Dato' Siti kahwin Dato' K kan. *saja buat korang jealous :ppppp ahahahaha! I jumpa Lisa Surihani! Cantikkkkk sangat! Sangat low profileeee!

sheena: omg you're so pretty *BIG smile.
honey: eh tak da lahhh. You pon cantik. 'again, you pon cantikkk'.

aww! ada snap gambar nanti I upload k. *bila la kan. Lagi, Rozita Che Wan, Sazzy Falak *sumpah cantik, Dato' SITI NURHALIZA, Linda Onn, Awal Ashaari, Betty Benafe, and ramaiiii lagi. zzzz. I rasa Lisa Surihani pandai berlakon lah. Cool sangat. I suka orang yang cool. Sebab I pon cool zzz.

Well, whatever it is, you guys pergi tengok sekarang and boleh join I nangis k. Kita nangis sama- sama. Sobs.

p/s: I loveeeee FARID KAMIL and LISA SURIHANI! love love love. hee.
plus, lagu pon best. mendayu gitu.

ehhh lupa lah! Fazura kesayangan pun cantikkkk sangat! I've voted for you babe for The Shout Awards. I hope you win :D andddd nanti Shout Awards I pegi. VIP TICKETS you. silaaaa jealous ahahaha.

whatevahh.

2010-11-05T18:00:00.004+08:00

Hye!
Saja saja update blog, tak boleh? haha.

I bukan choosy. Tapi kalau makan dekat padang nanti I berak berak keluar air then dehydrated. Kalau makan makanan tak bertutup siap lalat hinggap nanti I berak berak juga keluar air then dehydrated. Kalau I makan makanan dekat gerai tepi jalan nanti I sakit perut tak tahu kenapa nanti kena inject dekat pinggang. Doctor kata, perut 'manja'. Whatttt? Hoi tahu tak dulu MRSM Serting *amek kau nama betul, serve makanan kotor slumber je tapi I tak sakit sakit pon kenapa? Menu: Ikan asam pedas. Sekali makcik kafe tuang atas tray siap bergegar tray. Ekor ikan besar gilaaaa dengan sisik tak buang dengan ada lendir dengan gaul ikan dalam air campur cili sos.

Ok itu je I nak exam nextweek haha. Bye.

Haritu I pegi Paramore. Next time k cerita.

Ni buah hati dari form 1 tapi dia nak engage this December I nak gossip dengan siapa?:(

p/s: "Once a whore u're nothing more I'm sorry that will never change". Hayley William comel sangat. Macam nak kunyah Hayley!:D

stupid song turn out to be awesome.

2010-09-08T01:51:00.002+08:00

artist: Peter, Bjorn, and John
title: young folks

i cant whistle. so it goes, tu tu tu tu tu tu tu tu instead of whistling lol.

ive this song stuck inside my head for months i guess. i heard i back then once while watching gossip girl. then i heard it again playing on the radio but at that time i dont bother to grab a pen and paper, write the song title and go google it on the net. the worst part is, the only thing i can remember is the whistling part. so when i was like asking people around, i cant. cause i cant whistle. and they were laughing hard once i started my tu tu tu tu tu things. bahahaha. laugh all u can -_-". it's killing me, the song is in my head but i cant figure it out demmmm. i tried googled it but all i got is nothing. like hey, how can u put the whistling part into words right? even if when u typed the word 'whistle' pon, still tak dapat jugak the song title.

so i gave up and go search for it on facebook. and this fine lady named ms Aini Atif, which she's my brother's gf ehem ehem. nasibbbbb baikkkkk laaaa u tauuuuu. thank u sooooo much loveeeee. im like dancing in my room right now. because the song is soooo hippppp..:D

i dont know what typa song y'll listen to but im sooo in love with this type. so, enjoy!

p/s: "my place?". niceeeeeeee!

iklan raya TV3 2010

2010-09-06T14:02:00.002+08:00

apelah TV3 ni buat iklan bukan- bukan. santa claus is a strong believes by the Christian. ya mungkin niat di hati nak buat iklan raya satu Malaysia. tapi nampak gaya masyarakat Islam kat Malaysia tak boleh nak terima. haa, tengok ni. korang comment sendiri.

fyi, iklan ni dah di tarik balik oleh TV3 oleh sebab menyentuh sensitiviti perkauman di negara kita. semalam kalau korang tengok berita TV3 pukul 8, dengan rasminya diumumkan penarikan balik iklan tu sebab kontroversial sangat. but, kita jangan lupa yang Melayu ni kuat melatah. pantang di acah, haa mulalah. tengok la dekat facebook, berlumba lumba orang nak buat group boikot TV3 la ape. i mean, come on lah. grow up sikit. orang tu dah tarik balik and mohon maaf. mungkin agak bodoh gakla director iklan tu. tapi kita kan baru sambut kemerdekaan negara kita yang ke 53 haritu. 53 aint that young anymore. think outside the box. yang penting, iman di dada cewahhhh hahahaha.

and lagi satu yang pasal orang kafir panggil tuhan diorang as 'Allah'. fyi, orang negara Arab ataupun negara belah belah sana, selalu selitkan Allah dalam perbualan. macam, 'masyaallah' even 'assalammualaikum' sekali. walaupun diorang ni bukan orang Islam. haa ni aku taknak comment. lu pikir la sendiri. assalammualaikum.

he's just NOT that into you

2010-09-05T16:11:00.002+08:00

pernah nonton he's just not that into u sik? kalau tak pernah, pergi tengok sekarang kat HBO lol.

cerita ni pasal love story. bukan love story zaman dulu dulu ye anda anda. yang romeo and juliet, yang nak kahwin tapi family tak kasi lah, yang pergi dating naik sampan kat tasik lah. semua tu bukan. ni love story yang reality. having a relationship is hard, tak caye, tengok cerita ni.

well, one thing je i nak cakap. jangan tengok cerita ni. don't get me wrong. i suke cerita ni sebenarnya. like one of my favourite movies of all times. memang tengok banyak kali. ingat lagi dulu siap tengok 2 kali when it first hit the cinemas. satu kat Signature, The Gardens. lagi satu tak ingat kat mana tapi i tengok 2 kali lah. pastu balik bilik tengok lagi. pastu kat rumah tengok lagi kat astro -_-". ye i memang suka tengok movie repeat2 banyak kali.

"what if u meet with the love of ur life and by that time u are married for 13 years. will u let it pass by? and this man i've told u before divorced the fine lady that he'd been married for 13 years, and go after this love of his life and they are now married for 25 years". by Drew Barrymore.

lepas tu si Scarlett Jo ni pun terus bangun call laki yang dia jumpa semalam eventhough dia tau that guy is married! hai hai i memang baran sikit bab bab ni. sebab i kan, bukan nak riak la kan. tapi once i tau laki ni ade gf, memang i tak layan langsung. sebab i taknak the same thing jadi kat i. ingat lagi lagu 'what goes around comes around' by Justin Timberlake? haa, for those yang pernah buat benda benda macam ni hati hati la ye. awak dah buat, confirm confirm akan kena balik. this is life. please look up to me sebab i sangat pandai menjaga diri dalam bab bab macam ni awww! haha.

anyway, ade jugak favourite scene yang i suka. part apetah tak ingat nama laki tu. ala yang dulu pernah kahwin dengan Jennifer Lopez. part this guy propose kat Jennifer Anniston. sangat sweet tau! seriously, go and watch part tu je. yang lain, boleh nak tengok. tapi jangan ikut okeh. tak baikkkk nokkkkk. karang anak kau pulak terkena balasan. ish ish ish.

for however long, still an outcast.

2010-09-05T00:04:00.002+08:00

for however long, still an outcast.

kalau kereta break down, siapa orang first yang korang akan call selain parents? kalau i kan, i mesti blur. tak tahu nak call siape. kalau call, then tak angkat macam mana? credit dahlah nak habis. tengah malam pulak tu. let say parents pegi shoping Bandung, pastu anak tunggal. haa nak call siapa? woiii tragic nya. kereta break down, credit takde, tengah malam. ok layannnnn. cube kalau call this one person yang u knew, he'll be there for u in whatever situation. susah atau senang. u called, die tak angkat. pastu die tengok ade miscall, doesn't bother pon nak call balik. haa. even if die angkat, u tak tahu nak start macam mana. nak cakap nak mintak tolong. still rasa awkward.

ok bye.

p/s: annoyed tengok kau. tengok fb kau. tengok kereta kau. aaaaaa! i barely hate people. and when i do, it's forever.

doa di pagi hari di bulan puasa.

2010-08-21T09:33:00.002+08:00

hello semua :)

tak ada motif pon nak tulis entry ni saja nak sembang- sembang. Macam mana ea nak tahu lelaki ni IS THE ONE? Kalau korang ada boyfriend, macam mana nak tahu yang lepas ni korang takkan jumpa lelaki yang lebih baik? Biasa lah couple gaduh gaduh tu memang lumrah. Semua orang tak lari dari membuat kesilapan, itu aku akui. And kalau aku wat salah pon, apalah sangat kalau nak maafkan sedang Nabi pon memaafkan umatnya cewah! Tapi bila sampai satu point, bila dia buat something yang memang dahsyat habis! Yang kau memang tak expect ah dia nak buat. Nampak muka cam baik. Cam bagus jap g sanggup kau buat camtu an an an. Takpa. Aku tetap stay -_-" Bila dah sampai point macam ni, memang ah kau rasa before ni nak sehidup semati, tapi bila dah macam ni, nak taknak kau akan terfikir jugak yang nak ke kau stay dengan lelaki ni? Macam bagus weh macam bagus an. Lagi lagi kalau dia cakap men cakap an pedas aih! Tak reti langsung nak menjaga perasaan aku. Sentap weh. Seribu kali sentap pon, tak jalan der.

Ok la say, korang pilih nak stay. Memang susah nak yakinkan diri yang dia takkan buat lagi, betul tak aku cakap? Mulalah rasa insecure. Rasa cam nak marah je satu badan. Rasa nak backhand orang. Haa time time camni lah wat aku terfikir. Cane kalau after this datang pulak sorang mamat ni terbaik dari ladang? Memang contrast gila lah dengan yang mamat sorang ni. Mungkin kah he's the one? Dan mungkin juga mamat terbaik dari ladang tak muncul muncul? Mula lah kita menunggu kot kot mamat tu akan datang juga one day nanti? Atau mungkin aku ditakdirkan hidup sorang sorang sampai ke tua? oh no mintak jauh. Tapi kalau dah tu takdir aku, aku terima. Allah dah janjikan setiap manusia hidup berpasang pasangan. Mungkin jodoh aku time aku umur 70 tahun. Daripada hidup hati resah, gundah gulana. Aku lagi sanggup kahwin time 70 tahun. Sebab time tu mesti aku dah kaya raya. Engineer beb! Tak ada tanggungan pon. Sumpah mesti kaya punya, amin :)

Orang kata, doa. Ya, 1000 kali doa. Mungkin aku banyak dosa, doa aku Allah tak perkenankan. Tapi takpe, aku akan doa jugak. Bagi aku doa ni lah yang terbaik bila kita sampai one point yang buntu. Tak tahu nak buat apa. Aku dekatkan hati dengan Allah. Insyaallah, tuhan tolong. Betul tak tipu. Dulu aku pernah doa. And it came true :) Terasa pelik bila doa yang selalu kita ungkapkan lepas solat, berubah. Dari kecik doa lepas sembahyang aku sama je. Itu lah dia dari dulu sampai sekarang. Doa untuk aku, mak ayah, dan keluarga aku. Tiba- tiba lately aku ubah doa tu. Selitkan nama si polan. Memang aku ucapkan kata doa. Tapi jauh di sudut hati aku, ada terselit sikit rasa benci. Ini nama nya doa tak ikhlas kan? haha. Sebab ni lah aku terpanggil nak merepek kat sini. Macam mana kalau kau stay lepas dia wat dajal, kau kahwin dengan dia, tapi kau still tak boleh lupa apa yang dia buat? Ya, aku senang je lupa. Kau wat dajal today, aku bangun esok confirm aku dah lupa and ok tak kisah lah teruk mana pon keadaannya. Tapi nak maafkan tu, oh my.

So. Di sini. Sekarang ni, aku yakin that he is the one. Terbaik bagi diriku. Terbaik bagi hidup ku. Tak ada yang lain. *sorry boys haha. Andai kata dia tercipta untukku ya Allah. Aku minta kau buang jauh perasaan benci ku terhadap dirinya. Hilangkan lah segala ingatan ku terhadap perlakuan kasar dan kesalahan nya pada diriku. Ciptakan lah kebahagiaan bagi diri ini. Akan ku pelihara perasaan ini sampai ke liang lahad. Dan andai kata dia bukan untukku. Aku minta kau ya Allah. Buangkan lah perasaan cinta dan sayang ini jauh ke dasar laut. Hilangkan lah ingatan ku terhadap senyuman dan segala perlakuan baiknya terhadap ku. Maka terbitkan lah seorang insan di kemudian harinya, yang kau ciptakan untukku. Terbaik untukku. Yang terbaik untukku dunia akhirat. Kerana aku tak terdaya lagi menahan :((

Amin.

2010-08-13T00:50:00.002+08:00

ohh stop begging lah weh i just dont give a damn now. stop telling me u love me and so on bla9, it aint true yo. the tears that fall mean nothing at all now. keep talking shit but i aint coming back yo. keep telling me lies, but i just dont care u were with her or not where or when. keep talking, keep telling me shit. nahhh ur not that good in any ways. playboy sangat pon nak pergi mana weh? best ke weh? haha. i hope u had the time of ur life doing it.

"Jika I sebuah kereta, u la minyak yang menggerakkan I. Jika I sehelai daun, u la ranting yang memegang I dari jatuh. Andai u sebuah syair, akan I nyanyikan syair itu menjadi sebuah irama yang merdu". Bullshit!

2010-08-07T11:49:00.000+08:00

maybe God has a better plan for me :)

2010-07-28T10:23:00.000+08:00

awak, harini birthday saya :(

2010-07-27T11:24:00.005+08:00

I never ever wanted to date my friend's boyfriend. I never wanted to sit by his side in his car. I never wanted her friends to tell her that they saw me with her boyfriend having dinner. I never wanted to date him even if they broke up. I dont wanna feel guilty for all my life for doing that. That's why I refused to date her boyfriend back then when he invited me to join him.

I think I'm the most coolest girlfriend ever. Not that I dont care. But she's a friend.

He said im way hotter. Though me think so too *aww! But nah, boys.

What ever that u've done or planning to do, i called it ugly.

2010-07-26T11:33:00.002+08:00

Tom: it's love. it's not Santa Clause.
Summer: love is a fantasy.

500 days of Summer

Demm.

2010-07-09T20:19:00.003+08:00

aaaaaaaaa! emosi stress nya 2 3 hari ni macam nak tampar orang! Mintak apa- apa tak dapat! Yang dapat, mimpi je! Bangun tidur stress! Shampoo habis! Hardisk orang hilang! Bilik sepah! Barang tak kemas lagi nak balik UPM! Baju missing! Kereta tak basuh! Baju tak basuh! Aircond sejuk sangat! Remote bulan lepas lagi dah hilang! Report li tak start lagi! Bukak facebook, annoyed! Duit takde! aaaaaaa! Stressssssssssss.

Argentina lost to Germany, 4-0!

2010-07-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

I'm not a fan of football. But Argentina actually lost to Germany. Neglected to say, for 4-0! What a disappointing game lah. I thought Argentina is going to win the cup.

Almost forgot betapa comel nya Justin Timberlake kecik- kecik dulu.

2010-06-29T21:54:00.008+08:00

Agak tergugur jantung hai bila tengok N'sync kat TV dulu. Time kecik- kecik I memang sangat sangat suka N'sync. Sumpah memang minat gila- gila. I siap tampal poster N'sync kat pintu bilik. Siap cover- cover lagi time nak tukar baju takot Justin Timberlake intai. Hafal every each of their song. Beli CD concert time diorang buat concert kat Madison Square Garden. Hafal their dance moves. Serious I boleh dance macam diorang kat atas ni. Adik beradik I semua beratur depan TV dance macam diorang. Setiap sorang berlakon jadi ahli group. I mesti end up jadi Joey. Joey je yang mampu. Tak mampu nak rebut jadi Justin sebab kakak I lagi gila. Aww malu I! Peminat fanatik hehe. Who doesn't kan? Dah kata I membesar kat zaman diorang nak buat macam mana kan. Jangan kata kau tak pernah minat Westlife, Boyzone, The Moffats, and Backstreet Boys? Ouh dulu sangat- sangat tak suka BSB. Konon- konon dulu kan N'sync dengan Backstreet Boys lah boyband yang paling melets kan. Siap alih channel lagi everytime Backstreet Boys keluar. Konon nak loyal lah kat N'sync ecehhh!haha.

Ni I nak cerita apa yang diorang buat sekarang. Nampak je macam ni. Baju tah hape hape. Dance moves gay. Suara alahai lunak. Lagu catchy. Tapi.... Amek kau! Aaaaa nak cerita pasal 5 orang terus cam banyak sangat. So, amek sorang je ah ok ok? Hehe.

Ketua kumpulan. Ceh poyo gila siap ketua kumpulan. Justin Timberlake. Dia lah lead singer N'sync. Jadi famous sebab dia join The Mickey Mouse Club by Disney Channel. Sekali dengan JC Chasez, band mate dia. Christina Aguilera and Britney Spears. Comel kan? Kalau I join club ni rasa- rasa famous tak?-_- Dia ni sekarang dah ada girlfriend yang sangat hawt nama Jessica Biel. Fortune tak payah cerita lah kan. Paling kaya out of 5 members sebab menang 6 Grammy Awards and 2 Emmy Awards.

Girlfriend dia nama Jessica Biel sangat hawt! Tapi not that pretty lah for me. I mean, sebab muka dia agak bengis. But them boys called it sexy. Tu tak tahu lah kan macam mana korang describe. Lain orang, lain pandangan. Tapi memang sexy lah the body I mean. Aaaaa korang google lah. I malas nak google. Sebab internet tengah slow. Downloading cerita 27 Dresses. Best best, paling suka part diorang nyanyi kat bar tu hehe.

Ehh dah lari topik. Itu je nak update. Sebab dah lama tak update blog ni sorry ekk. Melingkau je setiap hari cane nak update blog kan? Ouh, practical saya dah habes lastweek! Thank god. Sangattttt happy wee. Sebab tak payah nak bangun pagi- pagi and kena drive mengharungi jam. Ok, takde lah jam mana tapi tak sukaaaa :( Tapi praktikal best. Sumpah best! Nanti I buat entry k. Sekarang tengah tak ada mood lah. I tak happy, kerja I tidur jelah. Malas nak fikir banyak- banyak nanti migrain. Ok, bye!he.

Have a good day people!:)

Oh kalau ada advertisement kat kanan tepi tu click lah ye. Derma lah 1 sen kat I dapat pahala. hehe.

Sila lah sedih bertempat.

2010-06-26T11:05:00.004+08:00

Pagi semua :) Harini nak cakap pasal kesedihan. Pagi tadi saya sangat sedih. Sangat sedih selepas terbaca something on Facebook. Facebook ni ada baik buruknya. Kadang- kadang boleh buat kita berpecah belah. Eh kenapa intonasi macam tak sedih je? Saya sedih sebenarnya. Tapi mungkin sebab dah 'terbiasa' dikejutkan dengan perkara- perkara sebegini rupa, saya jadi got-used-to-it. Macam dah malas nak layan, kata orang. Deep down saya memang sedih. Mungkin akan melantak 1 tong chocolate ice cream selepas ini? Kalau sedih makan lah ice cream, confirm tak sedih. Macam kau excited gila pergi Forever 21 nak beli purse murah tiba- tiba dah tak ada. Lantas haruslah pergi makan ice cream di kedai berdekatan.

Saya ni perempuan yang cepat marah. Cepat sedih. Cepat melatah. Tapi satu je benda yang paling best saya perasan pasal diri saya is, saya cepat lupa. Kalau saya marah tu, suruhlah saya tidur. The next day bangun mesti mood macam biasa. 24 hours recovery you! Untung lah siapa dapat isteri macam saya, tibe! haha. Sebesar mana pun kemarahan saya terhadap awak, insyaallah bangun pagi the next day nya saya akan lupa. Kecuali, sedih tambah kecewa.

Kalau sedih tambah kecewa ni lain. Nanti I intend to duduk diam- diam kat bilik. Kadang- kadang tu sampai mengalir air mata. Ok la bukan kadang- kadang, everytime. Saya memang gembeng bak kata Hanis Zalikha si model hot tu. Kalau nangis banyak sangat non-stop, saya akan migrain dan restless. At this very particular moment, I need you to bare with me! Please la tahan je apa saya nak cakap dalam nada tersedu- sedu tu. Sebab saya memerlukan that someone to talk to. Tahan jela for 10 15 minutes macam tu, and I'll be ok. Siap automatically lupa terus lepas tu.

Kalau nangis- nangis at night, boleh terus tidur. Kalau pagi- pagi buta dah kesedihan macam mana? Haih whole day lah kesedihan leceh betul lah. Pernah tak rasa dah malas dah dengan everything and rasa nak let it go je terus? Saya rasa saya makin matang lah sebab dulu confirm terus pum pam pum pam but now, I kind of lay back a bit. Tanya sikit- sikit betul ke tidak. Then duduk terperap berdiam diri. Tapi sampai bila harus macam ni? Hanya mampu bersedih and menangis. Tak mampu nak paksa orang berhenti buat apa yang buat saya sedih tu everytime. Everytime pun benda yang sama. Sob sob :(

Ini saya 4 tahun lepas. Masih dengan bag kait Roxy. Masih dengan favourite t-shirt gue dari The Little Black Book. Masih di Rantai event layan gig. Sumpah time tu tak ada budak sekolah langsung. Masih sememeh nangis 24/7. Haih. Eh betul lah, I've grown up.

what's the stupidest thing that man usually do.

2010-06-22T19:07:00.004+08:00

1. Go get a round bally muscular muscle at the gym.

Hey you know right most woman find that your round shape muscle as disgusting? I mean, it is not juicy at all. It's round! As if it will pop like a balloon once you put a needle on. Some woman do attracted to that but most of us, euw! That's disgusting. That is stupid.

2. Laugh out hard onto a not that funny joke.

Hey this is silly. Most man do this just for the sake of what? To get an attention from the people surrounding him. Imagine, at kaki lima, one woman trip and fall of her heels. And this guy who originally doing nothing suddenly laugh like hell. "AHAK AHAK AHAK AHAK KAGHKAGHKAGH lawak babi shial lah hahahaha lawak lah bodoh". I mean, give it a break. That woman is not embarrassed at all. You are the one who acting silly. This is stupid.

3. Psssst psssst pssssst.

"Psssst psssssssst psssssst", "Awak ada barang jatuh", "alah kau bukan cantik sangat pun lah". And we were like, whatttt? This is stupid.

4. Bragging about cars that he doesn't even own.

He tells you silly stories on how he used to own a BMW 5 Series, Mazda, Ferrari and got stolen and everything. How he modified the car into something so imaginative. He used to drive around the town with a hot chick at his side. And now, he doesn't even have a car because he is now concentrating so bad with his studies. Pity you. This is stupid.

5. Cough and sneeze hachoom and fart!

Cough and sneeze and fart whenever, wherever he wants. Together with that mucus of yours flying onto the air yucks! That is so not cool okay. That is stupid.

Well, this is just me collaborated with Jules and Prem from Fly Fm. On the topic of, "what's the stupidest thing that man usually do". Agree peps?

2010 Worldcup goes to Argentina, my early guess.

2010-06-21T17:44:00.005+08:00

Sekarang semua orang tengah gila bola. Tidur bola, makan bola, minum bola, tengok bola. Aku dah banyak kali dengar dengar motto bola korang ni dari dulu tapi still tak ingat- ingat jugak. Honestly, aku sangat tak suka tengok match bola. Yelah siblings aku semua perempuan and sorang je lelaki. Mesti lah kitorang lagi suka Kimora Life In a Fab Lane compared to bola bola and bola. Aku rasa sangat pelik bila korang sanggup berjaga sampai 2.30 pagi semata- mata untuk bola. Aku pernah tengok match bola full pun sekali je, time Chelsea lawan Manchester United tak silap, and Chelsea menang. Since tu, aku terus jadi biggest fan Chelsea sebab malam tu semua orang kata Manchester United loser and Rooney gemuk -_-. Aku dapat tengok full game pun sebab time tu environment dia happening. Memang korang patut terjah Asian Cafe, Subang untuk layan bola korang tu. Siap ada screen besar woo. Siap ada Indo Mee sedap woo. Siap open air woo. Recommended!

Tapi satu malam ni time aku tengah syok- syok tengok Desperate Housewives, adik lelaki aku sorang ni rampas lak remote and tup tup alih Sports Channel. Damn weh damn! Aku mula nak naik angin, tiba- tiba aku terpandang kat TV sorang mamat ni agak tanned tengah score goal. Goal! Memang style habis. Terus aku terdiam and tersenyum shy shy cat. Aku rasa dia sangat handsome. Nama dia Arshavin. Since tu, terus aku minat Arsenal pulak even tak berapa terer tapi sumpah, Arshavin sangat hot haih siap bawak ke mimpi you!

Aku sebenarnya nak cerita pasal Worldcup tiba- tiba termasuk EPL. EPL eh nama dia? Apa- apa la aku pun main sebut je. Worldcup season, yang lelaki jadi excited, yang perempuan diam je monyok sebab BF dok busy kat bola. Aku pun. Tapi aku tak suka, sebab pegi mana- mana je ramai orang. Diorang duduk minum segelas teh tarik tunggu bola. Meja penuh. Orang ramai. Bola start je, mula lah buat bunyi kuat secara tiba- tiba. Aku yang tengah makan Nasi Goreng Tom Yam ni 10 kali haa tersedak woi! Aku bukan apa, aku tak suka tempat yang crowded. Aku masuk mall pun kalau ada barang yang nak dibeli. Kalau nak beli hair dryer, aku terus straight pergi electical area, beli and keluar. Makan pun, kalau boleh aku nak makan kat luar mall tu. Kan ada restaurant yang kat tepi- tepi mall kan? Haa, aku suka environment macam tu. Open air. Suka suka suka. Tapi kalau ada orang smoking then tiup asap kat aku, itu memang aku angin rasa nak hempuk dia dengan pinggan! Ok ini cerita lain. Tempat crowded and asap rokok memang boleh buat aku migrain. Siapa nak aku migrain, try la tiup asap rokok kat aku.

Aku memang dari dulu pelik kenapa orang suka sangat kat bola. Siap dendam berahi lagi kalau club pilihan dia kalah. 22 man kejar bola ke sana ke sini for 90 minutes, siap peluh- peluh injured bagai, in the end, 0 - 0. I just dont get it. 0 - 0? Habis, kenapa nak buat match kalau 0 - 0 pun dikira point? Aku rasa aku teraniaya lah. Nak makan tak ada tempat, nak duduk tak ada kerusi, tengah makan tersedak. Jadi, sebagai orang yang teraniaya, aku nak doa. Orang kata doa orang teraniaya akan dimakbulkan. Aku doa, semua stadium, padang bola, court futsal, channel sport astro, semua lah yang ada kaitan dengan bola, rosak or roboh or hancur. So that tak ada siapa yang boleh tengok atau main bola or even futsal lagi muahahahaha. AMIN!:p

Ni la dia Arshavin kalau korang nak kenal. Pergi tengok dia main bola, sumpah korang sengih- sengih hahaha. Andrei Arshavin, the sexy beast! Yummy..

Imma big eater!

2010-06-20T23:52:00.004+08:00

Yum!:D

What I ate last 2 days?

For dinner, dinner je ingat. Beberapa sudu bolognese speghati. Beberapa sudu alfredo speghati. Beberapa sudu seafood lasgna. 1/4 chicken served with coleslaw and peri chips. Together with an iced lemon tea. And a few sips of coke.

What I ate yesterday?

A cup of hot milk, 5 biji crispy chicken ball served with 2 pieces of bread. 2 slices of pizza. A plate of nasi minyak served with ayam kurma and daging rendang. Few glass of air sirap. Whopper (ya whopper bukan whopper junior), onion rings, and iced lemon tea. Whopper sumpah puas hati!

What I ate today?

Nasi lemak served with ayam berempah and bla9. Amik orang punya nasi dagang sikit. Soya bean and grass jelly. Ceh nama nak glamor. Soya bean dengan cincau je sebenarnya. Ni kat belanga The Gardens. Recommended! 1/4 chicken served with potato salad and peri chips. Chicken mushroom soup. Iced lemon tea. Sikit cendol. Sikit nasi goreng tom yam. Sikit mee hailam. Sikit bubur kacang merah. Sikit asam laksa. And a plate of nasi ayam. And a glass of tea apatah yang ada 3 layer tu. Recommended! Ni kat Hailam Kopitiam, Shah Alam.

-_-
sekarang kesedihan melihat diri sendiri di cermin

Sorry tak ada gambar. Kebuloq punya pasal. Okla, gelojoh sebenarnya.

first thing to do in a traffic jam.

2010-06-16T20:38:00.011+08:00

Apa nak buat kalau stuck dalam traffic jam? vain! semua orang pun akan vain. so, saya pun vain jugak okay boleh?

aww tak sia- sia I make up 2 jam. see see tak nampak zits kan kan?:)

Awkward!

Ni dah start terlebih vain. Tak pe, layannn.

Pipi gemuk kenapa?

Tak habis- habis dengan peace. Dah tahan dah, tapi still terkeluar jugak peace tu. Fine, peace y'all!

Ehehehe.

I really love this scarf!

Ololo comel nya anak siapa ni?-_-

Haa mana makanan? Lapar ni. Woi mana- mana? Grrr.

Malu lah nanti abang waiter datang nak kasi bill tengok pinggan I licin tinggal tulang je. Ni I nak cerita. I ni ketagih Nando's. Dulu I siap dapat loyalty card lagi sebab asyik melantak Nando's Mid Valley. Ala yang 4 kali kita dine in nanti dapat 1 free meal. Tengok Nando's, kan aku dah obes! Sob sob.

Ehh dah melantak kenapa kurus ni? Mungkin perlu makan lagi separuh ayam kot?

Nampak tak ada balloon besar color putih kat belakang tu? Balloon tu sangat comel! Dia ada letak tempat duduk kecik untuk kita duduk. Then dah pakai safety belt semua, balloon tu naik turun naik turun slow- slow omg comel gila!:D Tapi I dia tak kasi naik. Sebab I obes sob sob.

Ignore the hair please.

Head to toe session:
Basic blue tshirt: Some street in London.
Jeans: Mango.
Heels: If you notice, I wore 2 different heels. One, yang ada ribbon ni Sheera's, borrowed. It's unbranded from UK. Another one is from Nose. Tapi dua- dua sama in black kenapa nak kena tukar? Sebab satu 3 inches, satu lagi 4 inches.
Scarf: Unbranded from flea market (Lah Lah Land).
Bag: Leather black bag from Mango. Originally a sling bag. I ikat jadi handbag haha.
Accessories: Nose, bonita, Bandung, Dorothy Perkins.

Ok dah habis vain. Bye bye.
Whoever reading, thank you!:)

:(

2010-06-13T02:56:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

I’ve been holding back for this past few months hoping for a miracle. I ponder a lot. To go for it or to let it go at which the decision would be a bit unruly as it always end at the same previous path that is, to go for it. There are thousands of options in this world I suppose. But it seems like I’ve this only 2 options left though. I refuse to burst into tears in public just for the name of alter ego. Though thought back, maybe I should let down my guard sometimes just to let people know that I’ve feelings. Been this way for a long time made me forgot that I needed a shoulder to cry on. Or perhaps, a warm hand to pat my back whenever I need it. My lung feels heavy. As if I’ve a gigantic rock as a size of an island on it. Hard for me to push it away though. I thought it is always that easy to change the fact or in other words, to change the truth. Just because, the truth hurts and I just can’t face it in any ways. So, I lied. If it works for me, why not? I’m content in every plea that you spend for me. I swear to god that I’m content, really. A little bit made me forgot who I was. I was a strong woman you know. If I’ve the chance to travel through time in the past, I would feel sorry for my own self for not having a dignity. Not that I wanted more, but hey, I do. It’s not overrated right for me to ask for my precious payment after what I’ve changed for you? But pity me. No one ever realized that including you. HAHA for myself. Doing things for zero. I never blame anyone for that. In fact, I thanked every each of you for doing it. I at least taste the feelings of growing up. It hurts and taste bitter if you want to know. I’m not deciding my every each decision just to taste it. I’ve plans. Convincing enough for me to move forward but my heart seems trapped inside yours. Maybe I like you too much. More than I supposedly do.

Love,

Sheena.

superstitious!

2010-06-08T19:56:00.007+08:00

Eh eh percaya tak dengan superstitious? Mama kata kalau kita bawak sireh junjung time orang kahwin, I mean as gadis- gadis pembawa hantaran, I mean jalan seiring dengan pengantin, I mean jalan bersama pengantin time kompang, I mean, ok dah faham? Dekat mana tadi? Ok. Mama kata kalau kita bawak sireh junjung time orang kahwin, tiba- tiba sireh junjung tu terjatuh, maknanya perkahwinan mereka tidak akan kekal! Apa? Ya, tidak akan kekal ke anak cucu. Saya tidak setuju yang arif dan tidak akan percaya sama sekali kepercayaan tahyul itu! Abis kalau dah sireh junjung tu terjelopok kat atas jalan tar and semua orang nampak terkejut melihat aksi tersebut, dengan pengantin- pengantin sekali nampak terkejut and sedih, masakan anda tidak mahu percaya? Mula lah lepas tu mak ngah kau datang ambik sireh junjung tu dengan rakusnya. Haa tula. Tadi taknak bawak sekarang rebut- rebut pulak kan? Nah la ambik ambik!

Lagi satu. Dulu, cikgu I cakap, kalau kita tengah main basikal tiba- tiba ada kucing hitam melintas meow! Means kita akan ditimpa bala! Tak kisah la drive ke main basikal ke. Asalkan tengah bergerak lah kan. Yela. Dulu kecik- kecik main basikal je tak main rollerblade ke apa sebab segan nak main nanti neighbour nampak cakap kita berlagak. Haa yang ni betul! Memang betul tak tipu. Sebab dulu I naik basikal nak pergi tuisyen tiba- tiba ada kucing hitam lalu I terus jatuh luka- luka sob sob. Damn you kucing!

Ada kawan I ni, boyfriend dia pergi Bandung, dia ni pesan satu benda je. Selipar tebal batik idaman! Boyfriend dia ni dah beli dah. Tiba- tiba mak ngah dia kata tak elok bagi selipar or kasut or terompah dekat girlfriend nanti girlfriend tinggalkan dia. Terpaksa lah bagi selipar tebal batik idaman ni dekat adik dia sebab taknak bagi girlfriend dia ni tinggalkan dia. Sebab sayang kan hihi. Kesiannnnnnn. Tapi takpe. Dia ni dapat banyak lagi baju, accessories, bag, spongebob, siap pin Patrick pun ada! Comel tak?

Bukak payung dalam rumah nanti ular masuk. Menyanyi dekat dapur nanti kahwin dengan orang tua. Duduk depan pintu rumah or tangga rumah nanti kahwin lambat. Masak masin means dah nak kahwin real soon. Omg apa superstitious semua kahwin- kahwin ni? Am I getting married real soon? Blush :p Kalau nak list kan banyak lagi la kan. It all depends la on that individu actually to believe it or not. As for me, I might believe it if it's really happen to me. Tapi tak payah la percaya sangat 100% nanti tak jadi, frust. Cita- cita nak kahwin orang tua. Dok nyanyi kuat- kuat kat dapur. In the end kahwin orang tak berapa tua. Siapa nak jawab nanti? Ok dah penat bebel. Bye!

Nah camwhoring time kerja. Aah file kat belakang tu semua I siapkan (-_-"

One thing I noticed is, they are all Muslim.

2010-06-06T14:20:00.004+08:00

I’m here to talk about the Law of Wars. Can you believe there’s law for wars? Thought back, yeah. It does make sense. We even have rules for playing cards. Or board games. Which we usually got confuse with. This one person has this different understanding about how the game is played. They’ll end up quarreling with each other. Leaving the game with no declaration for the winner. One side believes that he won so does the other side.

But when it comes to war, it’s the life of the innocent people that we jeopardize. Especially the kids. I mean, what they could actually do to kill you Big Guy? Ok la. You’re afraid that they could choke you while you fall asleep? Is that what you afraid of? Don’t you even have that sympathy when they look at you begging for mercy? Asking you not to kill them? You know what? Shame on you. SHAME ON YOU! You should be sorry for yourself. No, actually, I feel sorry for you. Pulling the trigger pointing straight to the boy’s head doesn’t make you a hero honey. I called it coward.

Islamic Military Rules. By Muhammad SAW.

“O people! I charge you with ten rules; learn them well!

Do no betray or misappropriate any part of the booty; do not practice treachery or mutilation. Do not kill a young child, an old man, or a woman. Do not uproot or burn palms or cut down fruitful trees. Do not slaughter a sheep or a cow or a camel, except for food. You will meet people who have set themselves apart in hermitages; leave them to accomplish the purpose for which they have done this. You will come upon people who will bring you dishes with various kinds of foods. If you partake of them, pronounce God's name over what you eat. You will meet people who have shaved the crown of their heads, leaving a band of hair around it (monks). Go in God’s name, and may God protect you from sword and pestilence.”

International Military Laws.

"Fight only enemy combatants. Do not harm enemies who surrender; disarm them and turn them over to the chain of command. Do not kill or torture detainees. Collect and care for the wounded, whether friend or foe. Do not attack medical personnel, facilities, or equipment. Destroy no more than the mission requires. Treat all civilians humanely. Do not steal; respect private property and possessions. Do one’s best to prevent violations of the law of war. Report all violations of the law of war to superiors.

I never care that much about Gaza, Palestin, Iraq, Iran, Afghanistan and etc. They were in the news most of the time. EVERYTIME I mean. The whole world is watching. We know that the people in Gaza are innocent. So we come to lend some hand. And they shot the ship? Can we get a judge over here? I thought it is clear that the war is only between you and your enemy?

You should be ashamed of yourself even if you won. Even if you died, you should be ashamed of yourself, still. You should be rotten to hell and still be ashamed of yourself, you coward.

Hang in there GAZA. First step to do is to boycott McDonald’s. That’s the least I could do. Sobs.

p/s: My condolence goes to the family and friends of the 9 activists from Turkey who died while on the mission.

One thing I noticed is, they are all Muslim.

2010-06-06T14:20:00.002+08:00

Islamic Military Rules. By Muhammad SAW.

“O people! I charge you with ten rules; learn them well!

International Military Laws.

You should be ashamed of yourself even if you won. Even if you died, you should be ashamed of yourself, still. You should be rotten to hell and still be ashamed of yourself, you coward.

Hang in there GAZA. First step to do is to boycott McDonald’s. That’s the least I could do. Sobs.

p/s: My condolence goes to the family and friends of the 9 activists that died while on the mission.

nak baby sekarang jugak!

2010-06-04T23:36:00.004+08:00

Nak tahu tak? Dulu saya sangat benci budak- budak. Sangat benci. Sampai one time sanggup pijak kaki anak sedara sebab rasa sangat annoyed tengok dia merengek- rengek. Lepas kena pijak terus diam. Bukan patutnya kena pijak lagi meraung- raung? Maybe terkejut tengok apa I sanggup buat kat dia kot? hahaha.

Tapi sekarang, saya sangat nak nak nak NAK baby! kalau ada baby kat mana- mana rasa nak kepit kuat- kuat biar dia lemas!-_- Thank god. Ingatkan sampai bila- bila pun taknak baby. Dulu siap plan nak adopt anak lagi sebab annoying punya pasal. Sebab dulu fikir, kalau dah taknak and tak suka baby tu boleh pulangkan balik sebab bukan anak sendiri. Orang kata, benda yang kita paling taknak lah yang kita dapat. Ada kena mengena ke? Whateverrrrr.

Kalau ada baby, saya nak baby boy. Baby girl pun ok jugak but I'm more to the boys haha. Saya nak bagi dia makan banyak- banyak sumbat dengan segala jenis makanan so that nanti dia jadi sangat gemuk gemuk gemuk and BULAT! Lepas tu, time raya nak pakaikan dia dengan songkok besar and baju melayu color hijau biar sendat! Lepas tu nak guling- guling kan dia kat atas carpet biar jadi attention bahahaha. Comel nyaaaaa!

Ok pergi tengok UP Pixar sekarang and you'll know what I mean. Happy watching! I love this movie so much probably more than The Sleeping Beauty. If tak sempat nak download, tadi premier kat Disney Channel. Maybe after this ada repeat? Pergi lah tengok baby boy idaman saya berlakon. Confirm bawak ke mimpi!

My baby boy won The Animated Movie of the year! Way to go baby.

Rain rain go away, come again another day .

2010-06-04T23:27:00.002+08:00

Terkejut mak tengok rainbow pagi tadi. Tiba- tiba boleh terlupa diri sedang bersedih. Macam dah bertahun tak terserempak dengan pelangi. Eh! Rainbow lah. Cakap dengan diri sendiri, senyum dengan diri sendiri, pointing kat rainbow, macam sangat excited. hehe. After 5 seconds, tiba- tiba teringat aksi emergency break like 10 minutes ago sebab tak nampak jalan sebab hujan lebat! ouh, dah lama tak hujan pagi- pagi. Selamat mak hari ni. Fuhhh.

super mad!

2010-05-31T18:34:00.003+08:00

there's a fine line between a friend and a girlfriend. maybe she's the girlfriend and im none? then who is asyraf?

quote,
"you're in love with April, who used to be in love with Lucas, and the she fell in love with you, but you were in love with Summer, who was always really in love with Hampton, and now you're in love with April, she's in love with Kevin. And no one's in love with you".

That's complicated.

hye hottie. call me baby :p

2010-05-30T12:12:00.006+08:00

saya tak pandai mengorat orang :p ok tipu. eh betul lah! macam mana kalau kita pergi cakap 'hye' and he blew me off? malu tak? malu kan? masa sekolah dulu reti lah. ouh dulu pro haha. it's called the 2 seconds rule. macam ni, while talking to your friend waiting for the assembly to start, glance at him. after 2 seconds, glance lagi sekali. it'll usually work trust me. hihihi. glance- glance je reti lah. tapi bila depan- depan gulp!

well now it all depends on the mood lah. in fact, i dont know what do i do when someone is hitting on me. for example, tengah makan kat TGI tiba- tiba ada orang datang kasi phone number.

moody: senyum je. *dalam hati ouh shut up lah and go away.
mood biasa- biasa: ouh okay. i'll call u. tapi selalu nya tak call lah sebab tak reti nak cakap apa haha.
bitchy mood: hye, just call me BABY :p ini especially when dining out with the gfs la. kan selalu main game gedik2 kan. untung- untung boleh dine free hehe.

but to start, ok i tak pernah pergi mengorat orang. i dont have that confidence! in fact, nak tawar- menawar kat abang pasar malam pun macam segan. sometimes siap boleh rasa sangat annoyed kalau abang pasar malam tu macam dah start menggatal. terus tak jadi beli. hey that's me! i really wanna be those yang sangat outgoing boleh slumber pergi approach this hunk and kasi phone number. dulu ada pepatah 'jangan jadi timba mencari perigi' wah wah pepatah siap. tapi sekarang lelaki kan dah sikit? so kena rebut! but still, im like attach to the pepatah sebab tak berani, penakot. booooo!

p/s: kalau jalan kat mana- mana mesti terjumpa hot hunk kan? rasa rugi tak sebab tak pergi kasi phone number knowing that kita takkan jumpa dia lagi?

well, i do. HAHA!

goodluck all the way Lee DeWyze!

2010-05-28T18:45:00.005+08:00

singer: Andrew Garcia
song: straight up

what do u think about it? i think he is one hell of a singer! when i was listening to that a month back, im pretty sure he is going to be the next American Idol. but after the show started, he was like, lost. always chose the wrong song. a song that does not reflect him as a good singer. so, he got voted out. together with the lovely Didi Benami. Andrew Garcia and Didi Benami was originally my favourite at 1st. maybe they got nervous and screwed their chance. u should watch Didi Benami last performance. i literally laugh. it was too dramatic.

and the winner goes to Lee DeWyze. hm who is he? macam tak pernah tengok? tak pernah perasan. tak pernah teringat balik bila tengok dia perform. maybe everytime dia perform pun i pegi toilet kot sebab nak tunggu iklan lama lagi -_- he's a painter from Chicago. he does not have that authentic voice. not handsome. didnt say much words. nyanyi pun tak berapa best. selalu pitchy. but heyy he's humble. literally cried while performing his grand finale when Simon says it was baddddd. he's a good person. i dont think he ever curse pun. he looks kind. well, above all that, i think u deserve it man. all the best!:) i think it's ur time to shine.

p/s:

artist: Didi Benami
song: terrified

artist: Crystal Bowersox (1st runner up)
song: natural woman

emosi tau!

2010-05-28T16:29:00.002+08:00

annoying nya! semalam plan nak tengok movie Prince of Persia canceled. today mama and ayah dating Prince of Persia tu 2 orang je. tadi lunch makan lamb, fries, salad tambah thousand island banyak gila! kira lah berapa banyak calories :( i nak register gym tapi tak pergi2. oh ya! i wanna tell u guys ni berita hotness! ada FITNESS FISRT baru bukak kat mall baru bukak jugak nama EMPIRE kat Subang. so whoever yang tinggal area Subang or Shah Alam, grab this chance! dia offer RM30 SAHAJA for a month. with no hidden contract. last register this 31st May 2010. but boleh start bila2 asalkan a month. ada swimming pool masin tu, sauna, macam2 exercise punya equipment, yoga class, DANCE class!:D most likely macam California Fitness dulu kat Mid Valley tu tapi sekarang tukar jadi Celebrity Fitness but basically tempat dia sama je. dulu my mom and my sister register kat situ for a year so i pun sibuk2 pegi sekali sebab siapa yang register boleh bawak sorang teman hehehe. so grab it! lagi berapa hari je ends.

ok balik balik to the main point. im a bit emotional lah lately. nextweek dah start intern dekat the same company *Fonterra Brands (M) Sdn Bhd. but nextweek i kena tukar kat branch Kota Kemuning joining production department diorang but tak reti macam mana nak pergi sana. dulu pernah pergi sekali tapi jam macam haram and it took 45min kot nak sampai!

and this Johnson's Body Lotion contest. macam dah annoying gila pulak sebab orang boleh vote byk kali. why not buat orang boleh vote sekali je? ini everyday pun nak kena gebang penat ahh! and i just realised it! baru tau orang boleh vote banyak kali huh! and baru tau kena upload receipt lotion tu. and baru tau kena upload gambar lotion tu. and baru tau contest ends 15th of July! like 2 months away?? gila apa. penat lah macam ni :(

and i nak p sopinnnnn :(( i nak p tengok movie. 2 months dah tak tengok movie!huu. ok la one month actually. eh ok la few weeks baru. but whatever la still dah lama kan? i need a vacationnnn~~

teruk lah u woman!

2010-05-26T21:51:00.003+08:00

kenapa kalau kita nampak pak cik tua kita rasa sayu? tiba tiba hati terasa hiba. ololo. no, seriously, like sedih. once i saw this old man dekat Hospital Batu Pahat *it's a longggg story macam mana i boleh sampai Batu Pahat. He literally tries to eat. Having his lunch. But u know lah hospital kerajaan macam mana kan. the nurse letak tray yang penuh dengan makanan dekat atas table this old man punya table. ouh comel nyaaa cakap belit belit hihihi. the thing is, sebab keadaan yang congested, ramai sangat pesakit, he was placed in the middle of the ward. i mean tempat orang lalu lalang tu. this old man yang looking real sick ni, yang penuh badan dia dengan wire2 tu, try so hard to stand. to reach for the table. and reallyyyyy slow. mula2 duduk, then nak berdiri tapi ada wire, ok cabut wire slow slow, i know it hurts so bad, then try to stand, then turn around facing the table, amik orange tray sudu cawan, oh forgot something put it back. then amik balik one by one. tiba2 sudu terjatuh atas lantai. then ada nurse lalu but gelak2 cakap kat kawan dia 'ko tengok sudu dia jatuh hahahahaha'. and im like soooo mad! tak tau kenapa. maybe teringat kat nurse yang jaga arwah atuk pun perangai macam ni.

yes, im doing nothing. i dont know what stops me but yes im like standing still looking at him with this pity puppy face but still, im doing nothing. never came across my mind to help him and i dont know why. it's like watching a sad movie. sedih, but tak boleh nak buat apa2 sebab it's a movie. haih. then apa jadi? i walked away. sebab i cant stand the smell. ouhhhh i can still remember the smell! so baddddddd wekkk.

anyway, i feel bad for this old man until today. i regret that i walked away. if i could, i would turn back time..:( im sorry old man.

p/s: tadi acik guard kat tempat praktikal ni bayarkan kita punya nasi bungkus. actually nak cerita pasal dia but hehe tersimpang. so next time lah sebab dah ngantukkkk zzzzzz.

how too much is too much, really?

2010-05-25T19:57:00.006+08:00

head to toe session
scarf: mama bought from switzerland
shirt dress: old blossom box
short: FOS. memang seluar tido tak tipu
slipper: unbranded, the curve
belt: nicchi

that's me. last weekend. having monthly barbeque event in Fraser Hill with the family :)

have u ever passed by a guy and he kinda whispered to ur ear *sangat dekat okay, "tinggi nya".
have u ever walked in a mall having every each of guy looking at you with a smiling face?
have u ever walked into a restaurant and all the customers looking at you up and down with a weird face?
have u ever went to a wedding reception and being told by someone, "kalah pengantin!".

well, i have. do i really wear something that is over the top? i dont think so. i think im wearing okay though!haha. of course la compared to u and u like plain as hell *amik kau :p why do u judge when u cant actually pull it off? have u ever wore a 5inches heels? ur boring routine is always about flat sandals, plain tshirt, and just a pair of jeans je kan. hey i wear that too. in fact i can be really selekeh sometimes. now the question is, is there any rule that u cannot pass the limit of dressing up? ikat rambut 2 bajet comel ah? ikat rambut 1 bajet comel ah? tak ikat rambut pun bajet comel ah? blow rambut jadi kembung bajet comel ah? semua pun bajet comel ah? abis kau punya rambut dah macam mop kau tak pikir plak an. hish emosi i!

haa gelak la puas2 ekk. at least im better than u sebab i berani pakai bling2 satu badan kau penakot. booooo u!

p/s: it's not my problem that u are SHORT though.. ok la, im sorry that u're short. the problem is u. u are SHORT and PLAIN as hell!

changes in life

2010-05-24T09:18:00.010+08:00

i used to be a big fan of Disney Channel. Nickelodeon. Remember Rugrats kids? yang sorang nama Chuky selalu main solve2 kan problem. Investigate benda kenapa budak perempuan besar tu taknak makan. nama Victoria ke apa tah ingat. Imma BIG FAN, yup! name it! Tom and Jerry, Powerpuff Girls, Mickey Mouse *tak minat sangat though sebab asyik cerita nak main kawin- kawin je -_-. ouh another one, cerita apatah tak ingat. yang dia travel through jamban. flush then pergi tempat lain, like dumpster ke pe tah, omg! cepat google. tiba- tiba rasa sangat rindu dengan cerita ni.

and then, ni paling weird thought back. national geographic! haha. Discovery Channel, National Geographic Channel, Discovery Science, and HISTORY CHANNEL paling minat. dia cerita pasal kapal karam omg who wouldn't? sebab dulu cita cita nak jadi penyiasat kan that's why. still, sampai sekarang i minat Plane Crash Investigation. Semua jenis accident i dah tahu. Stewardess terkeluar dari plane sebab skru kecik kat cermin tak pasang betul. Bulu burung tersangkut that's why engine plane terbakar. Plane berkecai sebab kena lightning lah. *ok ni exaggerate sikit. And Discover the Lost World of Atlantic ke pe tah. sampai sekarang terkilan sebab tak dapat nak tengok :(

and then, teenage life! macam sekarang lah i guess. macam kita sekarang. MTV, E!, V channel, Starworld. Except dulu tengok Punk'd, Miami Ink, Sweet 16, the OC season 1 2 3 4, ANTM cycle 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10, One Tree Hill, movies berlambak gila tengok. semua jenis romantic comedy. Music Video kat MTV bukak dari pagi sampai malam. American Chopper! sampai sekarang pun still. Miami Ink, i swear if orang Islam boleh buat tatoo, i will. FULL BODY no kidding. baru sedar sangat banyak tengok TV dulu.

now, still the same la so far. but the content of the channel that i chose to watch is different. like, Kimora. More to comedy la i would say. The Nanny, My Wife and Kids, Friends, Desperate Housewives, Grey's Anatomy and etc. Gossip Girl!:D and bla9 alah u know what i mean.

lately, things have been getting pretty obvious that im growing up. im more to AFC! HALLMARK CHANNEL! DISCOVERY TRAVEL AND LIVING! duhh nampak sangat dah tua kan. eh no, wiser hehe. i love watching sugar, baked, LICENSE TO GRILL, restorant makeover, anna olsen, and even Oprah -_-. well maybe im getting boring. but my cooking is getting better, i think :D yay for me!

i guess, after this i will be turning to CNN, Bernama, Golf. No!! that's for old people. selalu rebut remote dengan ayah sebab dia nak tengok news and we were like, ok. Jom tengok the same news for the 6th time sigh.

hey! talk about getting old. eh no, getting wiser :)

saya nak menang!

2010-05-23T10:52:00.009+08:00

hey hey.. ive entered this voting contest dekat facebook. kinda excited gila sebab if menang dapat designer dresses! wee! but im not telling contest apa sebab nanti u guys masuk jugak and there goes my chance hahahaha. dia suruh upload picture kat entry form. upload punya upload, tak lepas. then i dahlah jenis pemalas nak baca dia punya rules la apa. then, ouh below 200kb dang patutlah tak lepas. mula lah i bergebang cari picture yang below 200kb kat dalam lappy i. ouhh jumpa satu but cam blurr. ahh tak kesah!

upload, upload, crap! still tak boleh sigh. ok now tukar gambar buruk no 2.

oh no, still xboleh..:( upload 3RD TIME! sampai dah tak ingat which photo yg i upload, yay lepas!!!!hee. im like thrill sebab 1st time masuk voting contest yay! but then, tiba2 gambar kecik yang keluar untuk orang vote tu is profile pic! im like, ok la whatever.

hoho im like seriously wanna win those designer dress! mula lah process bergebang i kat facebook about it. dah ada 12 votes dah and that included mine bahahaha. and i hope u guys pegi vote i okay :D thanky muchy lovey heee. *but nanti u guys tau jugak i masuk contest apa. eyyyh! jangan masuk jugak tau, tau!

2010-05-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

happy mother's day to all mums out there!:D

2010-05-02T16:42:00.004+08:00

what's the worst thing u ever did when u were in the secondary school? thought back, yeah ive done some silly things. ive made my dad cried due to something that i dont agree on when i was 13 or something. the argument gets really ugly and i seems to forget that it's my dad im speaking with. been the only child in the family who get slaped by my dad because i was too rebelious. rebelious when resticted. and then, i ran away after the sooo-emotional-scene. that when i was 17. my dad, he's a very hot tempered man ive ever known. but still, im his favourite daughter, well that's what my sisters have been saying since forever. take my mom's money without reasons. lying about having a bf. lying about my grades. lying about so many things to tell. but that's with the parents. with siblings, it's another thing. but that's just normal. we fight, we make up. and the cycle goes on and on. but this particular one thing, it seems different. i never thought it will hit me hard. im not able to even confront her eventhough i know it's her fault. lying straight to my face about something that i care the most really broke my heart. i was like, trusting her like hell. even defending her when my dad accused her for something silly. i feel disgusted! u know, u can always tell me secrets. because we are sisters. is that really worth it for u to lie for some silly guy who dont really care about u when u had a major break down? does he even know ur full name? i bet no! is that worth it? really? ur doing this now? im soooooo dissapointed in u! just because u lied straight to my face. u've just lost my respect. and i hope ur happy with that. i dont know what to believe anymore. THANK U FOR DOING THIS TO ME. it smells REALLY good.

2010-04-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

just some rubbish on the side way, nothing more.
just a sluty whore, nothing more.
yes nothing more, totally, nothing more.

psycho girl

2010-04-26T19:38:00.003+08:00

ouh ya lupa nak cakap. babe, kenapa nak kena block kita ekk even if kita tak pernah nak add awak pun? macam kalakar x? ouh sukati lah labu. haha. yang aku tau, kau delete dulu gambar2 aku yg kau guna kat blog kau tu dulu. ohhhhh... pandai pindah url. delete ahh dulu. ganti kan dengan gambar2 kau pulak kan lagi best? blog kau gambar kau. ni blog kau gambar aku apahal? lagi satu klakar nya. saman kang. haa takot tak? takot tak? takot kan? hahaha. delete lah woi nyampah sakan haa aku adoi!!

p/s: jangan lupa print screen ye post yg ni. haa pastu komen2 plak mcm kau selalu buat..hehe.

passion is sexayyyyyyy

2010-04-26T19:27:00.002+08:00

today im going to talk about boys. kenapa? sebab saya perempuan. i cant really see things when it comes to perempuan. xdela xnampak, but u know la kan. kan? ok, mmmmmmoving on!

for me, the only man yang which i consider as a real man is bila dia ada PASSION. yeah passion. kalau ada passion on something tak kesah la apa2, dia akan nampak responsible, interesting, and attrative. passion biasa lah macam music, guitar, piano *hotness, photgraphy cam dah bosan but boleh lah *for those yg dah start lama, in studies, in family *work hard to change the life of his fam, in shoes, in clothes, ouh kereta TAK, drawing, and etc. the reason is simple, siapa yg tak ada passion or hobbies, i find it boring. mcm, 'eh jom pegi pancing ikan'? 'lain kali lah'. or 'buang masa'. or 'nak buat apa'. everything pon nak buat cepat2. and in the end, within 2 years, kau tak sedar yang kau tak pernah ubah routine kau and i bet in the next 4 years, i can predict kau kat mana bila hari sabtu pukul 3 ptg. try something new. because that is sexayyyyyyyy!

'i believe i can see the future, cause i'll repeat the same routine'.
p/s: hari ni dating tengok movie. minggu depan dating cuba teka buat apa?

100th post!:D

2010-04-19T02:42:00.001+08:00

for those who matter, this is my 100th posts. in a year and a half time! ok pemalas.

finally!

2010-04-03T01:37:00.001+08:00

home sweet home :) boleh online, rest, aircond, tv, wii, foodddddddd!
hah! monday nak photostate notes banyak babi bring it on bebeh!
:D

broken heart and finger.

2010-03-23T23:14:00.002+08:00

i could never imagine my future with u. i never dream of u as well. i wish i could feel pretty less heartless to let u go one day. because as weird as it sounds, i dont wanna be with u anymore. u make me feel unwanted everytime. feels like ive to push myself to talk to u. faking the laughter. to be honest, i never think of u as apart of my life. as apart of me. ive nothing to tell my friends about u. ill never know what u really one. i will never try to guess again cause i know it'll lead to depression. i thought that u'll never hurt me but im wrong. as always.

2010-03-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

Tak perlu mencari teman secantik Balqis andai diri tak sehebat Sulaiman, mengapa mengharapkan teman setampan Yusof jika kasih tak setulus Zulaikha,
Tak perlu mengharapkan teman seteguh Ibrahim andai diri tak sekuat Siti Hajar, mengapa didambakan teman bak Siti Khadijah kalau diri tak sesempurna Rasulullah.

al fatihah

2010-02-26T00:14:00.002+08:00

wan maisara, mrsm langkawi student ( cancer)
late grandpa ( infection)
neighbour depan rumah ( heart attack)
ayah lily
suno, ex schoolmate
pisang ( brain problem)
en firwance, lecturer ( accident)

last night, azri hazim my ex schoolmate. semoga kau ditempatkan di sisi- Nya. semoga Allah ampunkan dosa- dosa mu. may u rest in peace friend :((

dulu password aku semua alone alone alone

2010-02-25T01:37:00.003+08:00

i hate being alone. sebab kalau sorang- sorang tak ada teman i intend to berangan or fikir- fikir benda bukan- bukan *bukan lucah ok. tapi kadang- kadang, i wanna be alone. that's just the nature of me. macam sekarang, handphone terjatuh bawah katil aku biarkan. kawan aku datang aku buat- buat tidur. roomate cakap dengan aku, aku buat- buat tak dengar. i just wanna be alone. fikir- fikir balik apa aku buat ni betul ke tak. rasanya dulu aku pernah been through benda yang a lot worst than this. comparing, macam mana aku boleh go through. rasanya makin besar, aku makin matured. dulu ada benda yang aku patut buat tapi aku tak buat. masa form5 aku menyesal sampai sekarang sebab tak ada guts nak naik stage nyanyi lagu moffats miss u like crazy padahal suara aku boleh tahan sedap. padahal time form2 boleh je aku nyanyi lagu n'sync and semua orang tercengang muahaha. dulu aku outspoken aku rasa. memang stok tak tahu malu. ehh dah menyimpang ok back to the point. aku rasa aku sekarang buat benda yang salah. tak tahu lah it's just naluri. macam ada something holding me back. apa nak tutup langsir pun takot. takot roomate tak selesa. nak cakap xnak beli barang pun takot, takot kawan terasa. apsal ehh? ni lah aku tengah pikir ni. lagipun dulu aku tokoh murid. kawan- kawan sekolah aku ramai kat overseas. kenapa aku still kat malaysia stranded kat sini and tak boleh buat apa yang aku nak buat? nak speaking depan kawan takot padahal kat rumah speaking. nak jalan takot, selalu ke tepi kalau ada orang nak lalu. orang langgar aku pun aku tak marah. pinjam barang buat harta pun aku senyum je *cam haram! hah aku pon tak tahu apsal. hanjing!

tak suka lah touching touching ni!

2010-02-24T18:40:00.004+08:00

kawan yang tak berapa nak baik kesentapan. should i bother? nahh.. :) do i lose anything? nahh.. am i worried? nahh.. it's not my fault honey that u cant even differentiate the word 'do' and 'doing'. like, duhh. itu pun xtau ke? not just that, bykkkk lagi words. apa kata kau tak payah speaking langsung cause it sounds funny when u does. haha.

tak kisah la kau hangout kat tempat cam best ke, speaks broken english ke, trying to make friends dgn abang kawan aku ke *for which dia pun tanya siapa minah ni?, tak kisah la pape. whatever it is, ull never be apart of us. bak kata syafiq, dah kg tu memang kg je xboleh nak buat apa. stop trying honey, cause it looks fake!

'ala dia pun dulu gaduh2 dgn dia tu kan? tak payah kisah la. mmg kuat sentap'.
and im like, ok. hehe.

broga hill? shut up dont u even say it again tak best pun lah!

2010-02-23T02:39:00.004+08:00

bila that someone yang agak cool started somekind of hobbies people intend to do the same.

nikkon d60
photography
wall climbing
garden picnic
sg gabai
BROGA HILL NOW (bangun at 4am nak panjat bukit xbest pun lah)
baking
cupcakes ini paling annoying. tak sedap pun lah woi!
online shopping
blogging *haa ini dulu and ive started long before 'they' knew about it. ceh back up diri sendiri haha.

the one who started it: ya allah! annoying vavi haii dia ni ikut aku.
the one who looked at it *through facebook especially: ehhh asal semua orang ada 10 album 'broga hill' ni?
the outsiders:
a) broga hill? cam best je nak pergi jugaklah!:)
b) broga hill? erm nak pergi tapi nanti orang ingat aku tiru diorang *memang tiru pun!

yes i am everything he said

2010-02-21T02:55:00.002+08:00

not good enough yes im not good enough for u apparently but at least i tried to be a better person. u may not seen it through ur fake glass mirror of urs telling u everything about u is soo right even if its wrong. yes, u never gonna gets it right even if u tried for a million of times. i dont need u to point my wrongs. to question everything i do. u know what, i already have my stupid brain helping me with that! yes i am self centered bitch! yes i am stupid! why did u fall for me in the first place?

and the worst part is, im ready to give u my name and that is STUPID.

radio berapa entah.

2010-01-22T17:05:00.002+08:00

Artist: Phoenix
Title: Lisztomania

So sentimental
Not sentimental no!
Romantic not disgusting yet
Darling i'm down and lonely
When with the fortunate only
I've been looking for something else
Do let do let do let jugulate do let do let do

Let's go slowly, discouraged,
Distant from other interests
On your favorite weekend ending
This love's for gentlemen only
That's with the fortunate only
No i gotta be someone else
These days it comes it comes it comes it comes it comes and goes

Lisztomania
Think less but see it grow
Like a riot, like a riot, oh!
I'm not easily offended
It's not hard to let it go
From a mess to the masses

Follow, misguide, stand still
Disgust, discourage
On this precious weekend ending
This love's for gentlemen only
Wealthiest gentlemen only
And now that you're lonely
Do let do let do let jugulate do let do let do

Let's go slowly, discouraged,
We'll burn the pictures instead
When it's all over we can barely discuss
For one minute only
Not with the fortunate only
Thought it could have been something else
These days it comes it comes it comes it comes it comes and goes

Lisztomania
Think less but see it grow
Like a riot, like a riot, oh!
I'm not easily offended
It's not hard to let it go
From a mess to the masses

2 phone no straight to my table. aww! i must have been looking real hot this week!:)

hachoom!

2009-11-18T10:00:00.001+08:00

i was up for the whole night. couldnt really gets some sleep. i feel sick. ive runny nose. sneeze for every 5 minutes. empty stomach. can hardly breath. aircond remote was like so far away i couldnt reach. i think im having fever :(

may this fever go away soon!

bla bla bla blaahhh

2009-11-14T02:17:00.003+08:00

i swear. i curse. i talk behind my friend's back. i fight back when it is unfair. i tell when it is uncertain. i love britney spears despite her falls. i sing to paris hilton's stars are blind. i wear calvin klein. i wear some streets top too. i cry like a baby with the screaming sounds too. i hate people without reason. i love to eat. i sleep without my blind on. i spend rm50 to a meal. i wash my sport shoes when i feel like to. i own about 40 heels and shoes and flip flop. it take years for people to really know me. i have many friends but few good friends and bestfriends. im using an antique asus laptop. i adore paramore. i love singing. i love dancing. im broke with no money at all sometimes. im not that good in studying. i hate my former highschool, but not mrsm kuala klawang. i simply fall for someone who gave me the least attention. i hate those who brag a lot. i hate people copying my style *fashion or writing. i feel good walking in heels. whenever i feel ugly wearing a clothes, ill go and buy a new one instead. yes i am snobbish. i dont really give a damn about people's perception towards me. im good at sports. i think he's scared and irresponsible when he ignore his partner in front of his friend. i still think he's arrogant without any doubt. i dont do clubbing neither alcohol. i think smoking is so not cool. i think leather jacket suits me best. i hate kg people. im not that polite actually. i can be loud whenever i feel confident in what im doing. i can swim but not that good. i drown once when i was 11. i always have this same dream since i was 9 kot until now and waking up to the dream, crying. i think my voice is quite good. my 1st cassette is from natalie imbruglia. my 1st present is a walkman. and then a blue bicycle. and then an adidas watch. ive been working with 7- 8 different job since i was 17. ive been working with this multinational company too as a secretary for one of the board of directors. i used to be a dental assistant too without knowing a thang about dentistry! somehow, i manage to cope with that for a month. i always think im fat all the time. i want to be taller. i hate man who adore a girl with no sense of humour. i hate those who pretend to be good in english but they dont. she cant even pronounce coleslaw correctly. i love independent music but not when everyone's in love too. i dont really watch football but im good in futsal. and i think arshahvin is one of the hottest man alove too. i love a movie from johnny deep including that-so-called boring public enemies. also, sweeny todd! i love watching walt disney cartoon movies especially sleeping beauty and cinderella. i apply a lipbalm allllll the time on my lips since i was in standard 3 making it looks more pale. i love accesories so much. i love collecting bags. i love birthday parties, cause everyone seems happy. i love woman with a strong voice chord. megan fox, hawt! i hate people who have smelly breath. i always want my man to text me only, no one but me. i dont do reading. i read hot magazine since i was in form 4 and i currently stop. i crave for certain food sometimes. i love my name because it sounds very english. i look very much nice with totally black hair. i dont wanna be nice all the time. its been about 3 years since i ride a public transport. im not a rich girl. ive a strong family education background. i never won a lucky draw but won one recently and im thrilled! im not a fan of mj but i love billie jean's song. i cried a lot these days. i hate my life now. i think im boring now. i smell good all the time without perfume on. i sneeze to my own perfume. i buy some of my clothes with my own money. i always want to be a model but afraid to go for a photography session even all the date and time is there. i love baking but never really cook good food haha. i think cooking is simple. i hate the painting on my wall. i think my mom is old enough to wear a scarf all the time huhu. i go for what i want especially when i didnt get it but not in studies apparently. i love beetle a lot. im dreaming of buying my parents a mercedes. a sporty mercedes in white. i always want to live in a studio apartment with a private access to the rooftop. ive insomnia sometimes. im scared of ghost, a lot! i can type quite fast. i want to have a flawless skin. if i were man, i would never marry a boring girl *cikgu geografi. i dont really gets sarcasm.

p/s: i would want to marry a gay because he's clean, he do shoping, he doesnt smoke, he's polite, have a good sense of fashion, updated, reads magazines *gossip, watch gossip girl, brush teeth before sleeps, aware of his weight, really give good advice, buy designer clothes, emotional, go to salon, watch beyonce concert, have a good sense of humour, love laughing, normally good looking and and and :)

too many prada i guess.

2009-11-11T01:45:00.005+08:00

i fall for anybody who gave me the least of attention everytime. a quick 2nd glance make me feel uncomfortable yet deep down i feel great. a wanna-get-to-know-you message through cellphone or even facebook make my day, a lot! walking down the street, feel like im being pleased by all man as if they are staring at me. i feel like a celebrity when somebody told me that, that somebody is talking about me, gossiping about me. im just loving that arrogant feeling of mine about it. somehow, i get annoyed lately. you wanna know why? since i was a kid, i always being on top of every teacher's list. im intelligent, im preety, very much polite everytime and bla bla bla. going to highschool suddenly changed me a lot. my perspective towards things have changed. i-always-wanna-be-the-next-prime-minister to i-wanna-be-that-hot-bitch-who-living-in-manhattan. eager about the next season leather jacket telling people on how much i love it and all. looking at this one person who good at photography, makes me wanna be her. another one person who good at singing, makes me wanna be her too. i never stick to one thing for years and only now that i realise that, what do i get from that? im not good in calculation but not good in memorising either. is there only this 2 options available for me in this fetish world? ohh engineering is probably not that wise choice ive made. i shouldve go to cambridge by now learning law or something. im one of the top student when i was 12 or something. things have flipped around like 100% totally. i dont want to be that girl who always at the bottom, sitting on that office chair for 8 hours a days, doing calculation on people mistakes building the machine, and repeat the same routine, EVERYDAY. i once heard this song, 'i believe i can see the future, cos i'll repeat the same routine'. i wanna be that resort owner who live a luxurious life by the beach waking up just to smell the beach and go to office by helicopter or something. i really wanna take that chance and go try for bussiness of stock broker but, what if it fails? living in the society of u-are-rubbish-because-u-dont-go-to-college is hard. they judging us just by the qualification that u have. oh kau tak habis form 5 kau kena kerja kat petrol pump je for the rest of ur life. haha! well, i really doesnt know what im saying cause im just mumbling around. well maybe because i just doesnt feel good about myself anymore like it used to be 10 years ago.

i wanna be a singer just cause any strong voice chord slow song will wake me up from this mesmerising dream. and hopefully, ill wake up just cause im singing to the song.

2009-11-07T15:58:00.002+08:00

people dont tell me who i am. i tell them. im sheena shareena remember?

im not coming back, bye.
xoxo

muntah dengar another word so please stop

2009-10-18T02:22:00.001+08:00

i didnt choose this path to be hurt.

the truth is ugly

2009-09-30T02:02:00.003+08:00

go and get your butt on the front row of the the ugly truth movie. ohh the last row actually. middle row would be perfect, tak kisahlah. just go and watch. for some reasons, dont go with your boyfriend bahaha. somehow, i hate watching it. when everything portrait in it seems right. like, pretending. perghh makan dalam!

*mamat amik order tadi sangat comel. comel as in nampak suci :) akan makan lagi di gerai awak walaupun gerai tepi jalan macam nak roboh hee. harus suggest kepada rakan- rakan supaya makan di gerai nak roboh awak tu. nanti boleh dapat banyak duit boleh upgrade kedai and life awak yay!

holiday

2009-09-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

wishing all happy eid al mubarak!:)

be safe on roads.

eye bags!

2009-09-18T04:11:00.002+08:00

12 years old
during school session, main kotak beracun with the whole batch...

"kau tahu betapa ku sayang padamu, hanya bidadari sebagai ganti la la la" sang by hamidin
and the whole batch goes, woah! peewit!
and i was like, "blurghhhh... give it up ok, lame lah"
"ok lagu ni hamidin nak tujukan dekat siapa?" the teacher asked
"err to sheena kelas 6S heee heee"...
and the whole batch goes, wooooooo woahhhh wowwwww and all eyes on me hihi :)

*6S tu kelas 1st ok bukan no 19.

15 years old
during lab session, q with the whole class waiting for the teacher

"zera! ada cermin x?" and she goes "xde"
"puteri! pinjam cermin kau"... "ala tudung senget! hisshhh!"
omg! hot nya mamat nih tapi tudung lak senget hmm

a month later, "hey can i get to know you, clue 14?" written on my desk. haha!

16 years old
malam, in my room with the roomates :)

tit tit one messange received, "hye.. boleh berkenalan?"
tot tot one message received, "hye.. awak sheena kan?"
tut tut one message received, "ive one confession to make tsk!"
tet tet one message received, "hello hihihi"

19 years old
4am, in bed crying.

tsk tsk how could you do this to me?:((
tsk tsk i hate you!
uhukkk but i still love you, but i hate u the most, love you hate you!
drama drama going on..... on and on and on and on!

dear god, please let me be 12 again.

im officially an arsenal big fan from today onwards just because of arshavin! sorry la chelsea :)

2009-09-05T23:41:00.004+08:00

ashahvin! yummy hahaha sumpah kalau dapat ashahvin jadi boyfriend sumpah tak cari lain dow!:p ok baru pergi google it's arshavin actually people haha nampak sangat baru nak minat soccer kakaka. tengok tak man u vs arsenal the other day? tengok tak arshavin scored? wow! arshavin scored gila smart sumpah seranah smart! sumpah tak tipu dowh! 1st time i ever watched orang scored gila smart was beckham tu pon tengok kat E! haha. ni entah betul ke tak spell macam ni tah lantak. he kicked the ball from the mid field and second after that, pop goal! perghh woi sila kahwin dengan aku sekarang :p ok back to the point, arshavin right? ok, haritu dah mati mati ni confirm la arsenal menang tak kan lah man u plak kan dah kata man u loser. no offense man u supporters tapi serious shit man u loser gila dengan rooney dahla gemok and botak ronaldo budget hot asyik terseliuh la apa dalam game. wake up people! u are smart why man u? adui adui. frankly speaking, i hate football a lot! tengok game for almost 2 hours and then, ok, 0-0?? like 0-0?? gila buang masa woi apa jadah tah tengok kat mapley ngantok ngantok tah. paling klaka tengok apa lawan apa tah kat asian cafe then tido ternganga kat tengah2 tu siap terkangkang bagai hahahahha hahahahah ahhahahaha ok tak klaka. well actually memang dah lama pon nak buat entry bout football ni tapi tak buat2. ive tried main futsal and blurghh tak best langsung. tapi tak tau la macam mana boleh main sampai kat kosmo penang kan * saya sangat merendah diri selalu nya. apsal time bola je mcd, mapley, dengan pakli2 sekali yang takde tv tu penuh? why? apsal tak boleh tengok dekat rumah ke weh? ok maybe rumah jauh kat pahang nun kan. tapi yang paling bengang la kan, memang paling bangang la kan, apsal tiba2 ramai gle sokong man u? macam xde choice lain la kan? bukan chelsea ke paling terer? * sorry kalau salah cos i know nothing bout football huhu. siap nama kat facebook pon zoran fique tosic *amik kau nama sebijik haha. macam kau beli dslr, semua orang nak beli, satu college kau nak beli. macam kau minat schimaker *papelah spelling, semua orang la pergi tengok F1 wearing red. adui apasal suka sangat tiru orang ni weh? dah dah la. jom la kita sokong arsenal ramai2 sebab arshavin hot hahahah now who's with me?

tengok i, pergi pavilion tengah malam tix movie at 11.45 pm pakai baju kurung beb! orang semua dah pandang pelik gle and giggle. tapi orang memang selalu react macam tu pon kalau tengok i all eyes on me, except the giggle la kan ouh maybe sebab im that hot? ouh ouh oyeh boleh la ni dengan arshavin sebab dia pon hot :))

*baju kurung kan? dah kata bulan puasa kan. alhamdulillah!

2009-08-26T18:58:00.001+08:00

:((

2009-08-26T01:03:00.002+08:00

playlist dah cam haram!

dude, i dont need ur dad's flower hat to stand in the spotlight. dont u ever realise that?

bullshit motherfucker asshole maniac moron double triple moron

2009-08-26T00:39:00.002+08:00

Mass transfer laboratory
Acetone lab report, checked.
Naphthalene lab report, checked.

Process control laboratory.
Assignment, matlab.
Presentation on Friday, on second order process.

Heat and fluid laboratory.
Redo hydrostatic pressure.
Fludized bed lab report.
Boiling heat transfer lab report.

Social.
Break fasting at dewan perdana felda, cancelled.
Relationship, at worst!

Stop, shut up! For once, at least. I have tones of works to do. Things keep coming and I have no time for myself. Set your mind straight; set your mind straight oh how I’m going to deal with these things alone? Feels like this one chance that I really really want it to happen have failed. I really want to make it up to you. When I am at this one point, oh yes I want to settle things straight back yet I’ve no time to think. Can you imagine I don’t even have time to think? Yes, I am a failure. Yes I failed in everything I do even though I really want it to happen.

i can see you riding in front of me
but you make no sounds
its ok
you'll go to the shore if you need me
and its close enough between you and the shore
but still you can't reach out to me
pick it up, and go back to where you belong
i'll stay by the shore to watch the sun rise, again.
the thought of you is my protection
soon you'll realise it's an ocean size love

poor acting rich

2009-08-21T16:04:00.003+08:00

just got back from sjmc :( blood test and nose swap due to swine flu. oh wait, i wanna talk about these people actually. 'eh i went to the skin specialist kat subang sebab my skin bla bla bla. eh i tak main lah wait in line sebab nak jumpa doctor, i terus pergi specialist sebab demam temperature 37.5 je'. duh of course! dah kata company bapak kau bayar. everything pun nak claim. i hate people yang acting rich u know. like, 'oh i just bought this nine west bag semalam and beli leather jacket gucci god! i tak main lah guess ke apa'. but then beli pakai duit mara. then, snap pictures banyak gila babi pakai mng jeans, tapi beli pakai ptptn. come on la people. its not that u cant showing off, just that, u dont have to tell the world that u bought this and that sebab we know, ur not that rich ok. we know kau beli iphone tu pakai duit mara. macam kau nak pergi overseas nak attend wedding sape tah. wah status kat fb tu dah berbulan- bulan saying,' eh h1n1 lah should i go?' 'ala tak sabarnya nak pergi luar negara!' and bla bla bla. orang tanya pergi mana tak nak lak jawab. padahal pergi singapore je pon attend wedding sape tah kat flat je pon. adoi... girl, orang pergi paris london la apa switzerland semua tak kecoh pon sampai anak sendiri dapat swine. ish, senyap senyap sudah heh!

p/s: and i dont like people copycat my style or buy the same jeans as mine. get a life! ur pathetic.

i want him!

2009-08-15T00:30:00.003+08:00

lelaki yang aku tunduk didepannya tetapi berjalan bangga mendada mengikut setiap aturan langkahnya

I never gave much thought on how my life would end. And with whom, of course. Would I have millions of people attending my funeral or just him or not even him? When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it is not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end. I met him, him and another him. But when will I meet him?

terima kasih for your tongkat

2009-08-07T14:06:00.005+08:00

Dude, I have to agree with you! Lemah sangat ke kita kalau tongkat kita dibuang? Perlu sangat ke tongkat tu even lepas merdeka for over 50 years? Lembab sangat ke kita sampai pemikiran semua stereotaip gila menggigil bila diugut tongkat akan dibuang? Satu malasia hanya sekadar nama je ke yang kita dok sibuk laungkan lepas najib jadi PM hari tu? Adoi grow up people! Apa yang nak dibanggakan dengan peraturan yang datuk moyang kau buat 50 tahun dulu? Kau pun tak lahir lagi. Apa yang nak ditakutkan kalau tak ada tongkat? Aku percaya we can still make it even tak ada tongkat tu. Takut mundur ke kalau bersaing dengan bangsa lain? Come on lah, buang tongkat, bersaing secara adil sebagai satu malaysia! Sorry, but orang yang pakai tongkat ni orang cacat. Orang tua pakai tongkat sebab tak mampu, tak larat. Kau rasa kau cacat ke or maybe tak mampu and perlukan tongkat tu to help you? Well, I don’t. I can do it on my on. 50 years beb! India cina datang dari negara diorang and what? Kau nak suruh diorang balik? Tolonglah weh, live with it! Live with them. Apa nak takut? Sampai bila nak macam ni? ‘oh aku taknak kerja company Chinese gaji murah’. Gila stereotaip. Grow up!

*”kami berikan kamu hak 50% dan selebihnya rebutlah bersama kaum lain seadilnya”. This was 50 years ago! Anak muda dah maju dan kami yakin that we can still do it even without those tongkat yang kau orang nak bagi.

p/s: pakai lah, pertahankan lah tongkat tu kalau kau cacat dan tak mampu.

radio 10

2009-08-01T12:54:00.001+08:00

Title: Never say never
Artist: The Fray

There's some things we don't talk about
rather do without
and just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time and time again
younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time, time and time again
younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

lame saturday!

2009-08-01T11:59:00.002+08:00

seems like malaysia makin kecik kan?semua shopping malls dah jadi sangat bosan especially mid valley! pergi mid pon sebab nak pergi signature dekat the gardens. klcc bosan. ikea bosan. ou, cineleisure, piramid, sacc mall, mines, alamanda, hartamas plaza, named it semua dah bosan. tinggal lagi pkns dengan alam central tak bosan lagi sebab xnak dikerumuni mat rempit! *dikerumuni?? haha. neway, nak lepak pon xtau nak pergi mana. pak li haram lah nak pergi dah gila bosan adoi! capsquare tak pergi2 even dah lalu berapa kali dah kat situ haih. nak pergi mana ni?? tolong! bosan la weh asyik pergi tempat sama je :(

last night
adib: hye sheena!
sheena: hye! haha who's this?
adib: adib la mesti tak kenal an? kita tak pernah jumpa pon.
sheena: ou ok.mana dapat no? *no baru kot!
adib: xnak bagitau nanti dia bunuh i.
sheena: okey.
adib: dingin.
adib: megan fox what's up?

* eh mamat ni nak kata aku hot ke nak kata aku cam bapok? hmmph! makan dalam kot. but at least adalah la jugak strangers nak berkenalan hikhik dah bertahun takde orang msg2 ni haha

tqs la adib for letting me know that im still not that old that ive to be off the market haha!

2009-07-30T10:12:00.002+08:00

dont let me go :)

im 21 years old now

2009-07-29T23:25:00.005+08:00

ehem it's my birthday today!:)) *semalam actually hihihi

what could anyone possibly ask for more? i am very lucky to have such friends, family, and a boyfriend all around me.

A surprise birthday party celebration by them *aji ily ain leda dija mimah silah ibu izzah tikah amal zara yani ira leah
A fine candle light dinner at the JW Marriott Hotel, KL *kesayangan :)
A watch from French Connection *kesayangan juga
Tones of birthday wishes by friends and family on emails, phone calls, sms, facebook *kesayangans

thank you so much for wishing me well. and thank you for being there for me everytime!
ok dah 21 jom dangdut!haha

p/s: mimie syafiq amy puteri awan. kita celeb this sunday ye hee.

2009-07-19T10:19:00.000+08:00

i wanna be taller!

i need a friend!

2009-07-13T18:52:00.004+08:00

aah..saya suka berkepit dengan boyfriend saya. not only boyfy, i like doing things berdua. like, shoping, movies, jalan- jalan, study. semualah... tanyalah my bestfriends, kalau jalan- jalan mesti nak dok couple sits, jalan pegang tangan ouhhh sweetnya :) its not that i dont like socialising just that, that's the way i am. tapi boleh je nak melepak tengah malam main futsal dengan 20 orang girls pastu end up main polis entry and datok harimau kat court sampai kena sound dengan dak2 laki blok sebelah yang jealous sebab xdapat join ktorang bergelak ketawa kuat gle gaban hihi. but lately things have been sangat lah lain. i intend to be someone yang pendiam sebab xde member yang satu kepala. if dapat yang satu kepala i can be sangat lah loud sampai memalukan diri sendiri tsk. i mean taste sama, suka shoping, suka jalan, suka masuk kedai yang sama, suka spend sampai pokai huu. it feels different :(

*so jangan mengeluh sebab i suka berkepit dengan u. it breaks my heart when u keep giving me excuses sigh.

p/s: have a safe journey mama, along, and sheera.

2009-07-11T14:05:00.000+08:00

i feel numb. like a cold-hearted bitch.

2009-07-11T12:31:00.002+08:00

fuck!
fuck!
fuck!

*kan dah termencarut xpasal. 3 kali lebih afdal. ok i feel good now, for now at least :)

nyah aku bosan nyah!

2009-07-11T12:13:00.002+08:00

apsal 2 3 hari ni rasa nak mencarut2 24/7? even nak tidur da pon aku still rasa nak maki hamun orang? perut lapar je cam teringin nak makan semua benda je lately. and mak aku nak pegi londan and paris tak bawak aku tsk sampai hati! semalam pergi round satu blok dok pegi bilik orang. sampai- sampai, eh kunci? asal semua orang nak pindah bilik? sorang balik umah mak cik la. sorang balik cheras lah. sorang pergi keluar la. apakah aku telah dilupakan? apa turun rugby pon xajak aku babe? terasa la ni an huu. and so aku pon pergi message and call orang. urghh! 'err aku dalam kereta ni nak balik umah nanti aku call balik ye'. ok fine. message... 'ala babe sorry i busy la sok nak pergi facial and kenduri. nanti free kita soping ye hee'. tapi nanti size aku dah takde :( apelah bosan gle nak mampos hidup aku ni lately. amek hot, baca. ok dah khatam 2 kali. ouh remaja rumate aku ada, layan. connection pon camharam! urghh! mak aku dok call2 suh balik entah nape aku cam malas nak siap2 balik umah ann hm. aku nak keluar! uhuk :(( sedih siak!

*sekarang aku rasa nak pergi class mass pulak yang aku ponteng on monday hell yah!

1st week in hell

2009-07-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

nyamuk banyak gila nak mati, so i went to alamanda to buy ubat nyamuk.
panas nak mampos kat luar, so i went to alamanda juga beli sekotak mineral water.
i missed my 1st mass transfer class secara tidak sengaja tsk sorry dr siti! payung saya tertinggal kat ur room sem lepas hopefully masih ada huu
pagi tadi bangun lambat missed satu class statistic lagi huhu sorry dr tah ahmedov ke apa namanya saya akan lebih peka dengan alarm handphone saya next time *ntah dia paham ke x aku bebel ni
and kat dewan ni pejadah tah memekak xabis dari 1st day. nyanyi best xpe gak ini caharam!
and im starving boleh mati xmakan dari tadi :(

apelah 1st week dah schedule cam final week nak dekat2 exam apelah pack sgt jadual aku ni? kenapa semua lecturer masuk kelas tak bagi sehari pon kosong? 1st class aku reactor. tah apa dia cakap sepatah haram xpaham. aku cam blurr. tengok kiri kanan dak2 ni cam salin notes cam paham. yang chinese angguk2 ohh mmg paham betul ni. ape ke gila dorang ni boleh paham? ke aku yang gila bongok gaban xpaham2. ishh musykil. abes hilang semangat aku nak dapat dean list sem ni :( ohh lord!

statistic
reactor
heat transfer fluid lab
process control
kinetic

wah kau rasa mana yang boleh score? score pale kau! yang mana kau rasa tak failed?

and public speaking terlupa. erggghhh public speaking menampakkan sinar harapan nak dapat A ni :)

goodluck in ur 5th semester in engineering sheena!

goodbye mr holiday, im gonna miss you A LOT!

2009-07-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

ohh my my.. cepat gila habis holiday :( sob sob. my room is like hell now. kalau pendrive jatuh atas lantai memang dah tak nampak dah. memang tak jumpa pon pendrive. waa! i wish i have my own personal maid yang boleh pack kan my bags huu. and then kena unpack pulak adoyai. adoi adoi adoyai! ive loads of stuff! my my ohhh my!

*ok sheena boleh stop complaining sekarang and pergi pack barang sekarang!

<3 <3

2009-07-01T18:29:00.001+08:00

kesayangans :)

:(

2009-06-30T23:57:00.006+08:00

as far as i could remember, it all started early last year i guess. the death of my late grandpa :( not long after that, En Firwance my modern engineering maths lecturer due to a tragic motorcycle accident (kawasaki) at the highway. followed by my neighbour, the GM of this herbs and cosmetic company. my classmates father and mother due to lung cancer if not mistaken. and then the pretty ex mrsm langkawi's student named wan maisara due to cancer too. pisang, nozie's friend due to something that got to do with his brain. and last night this guy *wrong no texted me told me bout a death of someone. oh coinsidence kah? death continuosly shocked me from time to time. and last friday to be exact *kalau xsalah the king of pop, Micheal Jackson. if the rumors is true, thank god he died as a muslim. well im not a big fan and i dont feel a thing from the second my mom told me bout this huge news. but somehow, this song makes me sad for a while. these news kinda remind me on how grateful i am to be alive untill today. i mean, there's a lot of things that i want to experience before i go. we can only live once kan? we'll never know when its time. when is our turn. i wanna do bungee jumping, sky diving, i wanna ride a high power motorcycle, i wanna get married, i wanna have kids, i wanna go to makkah, i wanna go to the carribean island, i wanna buy a beetle with my money, and hike the everest? well there is a lot of things in front of me that i hope ill manage to experience it before i die. amin!:) kenapa ya when i reached 20 all of sudden all this things cam tiba- tiba datang in one time! maybe when i was little this things ada but i just dont care? or i just didnt realise how big the impact of it to me? so, di kesempatan ini i wanna tell everybody that im sorry if i ever hurt your feeling and i love you!

Artist: Micheal Jackson
Title: You are not alone

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

p/s: semoga roh kalian ditempatkan dikalangan orang- orang yang beriman. Al- fatihah...

*maisara.xanga.com... it took me about 2 weeks to let it go after reading her very motivational blog eventhough i dont really know her. yes, u aint a delicate little flower, ure a superwoman!:) rest in peace dear.

radio 8

2009-06-30T23:40:00.001+08:00

Artist: Destiny's Child
Title: Dangerously in love

I love you... I love you, I love you

Baby I love you, you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the seed
With you and God, who's my sunlight, I'm blooming, grown so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
I Realize all my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold, to feel, to breathe
To live you
Dangerously in love, yeah

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Dangerously (dangerously)
Dangerous, dangerously in love with you
Oh, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you.. oh yes..

p/s: thank you :)

all grown up!

2009-06-29T00:04:00.003+08:00

Swollen eyes and a red-hot-phink-zit-that-looks-like-a-tomato on my reunion day oh how great! Terima kasih!

yay to the organiser though hikhik

9 years and going strong!:)

i want to be 13 again!

2009-06-26T17:48:00.003+08:00

Its been a while la since I last watched a movie that really touches my heart. Im listening to this song called paper planes by Mia and came across to write this entry eventhough its kinda hectic with the reservation and confirmation for the reunion that I organised this Sunday. Well actually my life this few days agak serabot la. Too many problems that ive to think of but somehow im able to deal with each one of them! :) the movie is called slumdog millionaire. Yeah someone recommended me to watch this a long time ago and last few weeks kot baru im able to set my mind straight to sit still depan laptop tengok this movie alone at 4 in the morning! Haha. Crazy.. and my review is, it’s a very good movie I would say. Well I never ever wanted to watch a hindustani movie or whatsoever but this one it is different. It tells u about a life of this young boy named apetah tak ingat and his brother named salim and a childhood crush of him named latika. Always since forever I always get motivated by this typa story. Like, a story that tells the audience about a life or a journey that he had to go through in his life. He learned about lots of things. Without a mother guiding him. Well I keep q myself, what would I be if im in his place. Will I able to stand here at this place today? I don’t think so. But somehow, I do think that im big enough to do it myself you know what I mean? But, I always think that I am more than this frankly speaking.

Artist: MIA

Title: Paper planes

I fly like paper get high like planes
If you catch me at the border I got visas in my name
If you come around here I'll make em all day
I'll get one done in a second if you wait (x2

Sometimes I think sitting on trains

Every step I get till I'm clocking that game
Everyone's a winner, we're making our fame
Bonafide hustler making my name (x2

All I wanna do is
[ gun shots ]
And a
[load up, ka-ching]
And take your money (x4

Pirate skulls and bones
Sticks and stones and weed and bombs
Running when we hit em
A little poison for the system (x2

No one on the corner had swagger like us
Hit me on my banner pre paid wireless
We pack and deliver like UPS trucks
Already going haul
Just pumping that gas (x2

All I wanna do is
[gun shots]
And a
[load up, ka-ching]
And take your money (x4

M.I.A.
A third world democracy
Yeah I got more records than the KGB
So uh, no funny business
You already are

Some some some I some I murder
Some I some I let go (x2

All I wanna do is
[gun shots]
And a
[load up, ka-ching]
And take your money (x4

i am certain that i am better than you

2009-06-25T20:13:00.002+08:00

anything you can do i can do better
i can do anything better than you blurgh!

2009-06-21T18:22:00.000+08:00

im tired of waiting again and again. movie anyone? jom!

he's my man!

2009-06-19T02:30:00.001+08:00

digging writing lama that i forgot nak publish, im getting old! layan jela ye..

OHMYLORD! have you guys watch the semi finals for American Idol? oh my god THAT Kris Allen like oh my god! his voice was like oh my, ok. the sultry voice if his really really like, ok I am melted now. sangatlah menusuk kalbu tak terkata. if i have one guy sing to me like he did, i swear to god that I'll marry him (tak payah tunggu dia propose I dah propose dulu haha). at first i thought that he was like another typical american introducing his name as Kris (selalu american nama Chris kan macam Chris Daughtry, Chris bla bla bla). blonde (orang putih rambut blonde). senyum alahai sweet gila! but than, OMG! tak terkata kot. tiba- tiba lagu Kanye West tu boleh jadi Kris's type of music. brilliantey! well, i really hope that you'll win this man. kalau I ada kat US, 500 kali i vote for you! but personal opinion, I think that Adam will win. haha..sebab dia ada that wow factor as in he is gay? opps!

*good luck Kris Allen!:)

shia LeBeouf as in shaiya lebove 'bove' as in above

2009-06-16T17:51:00.005+08:00

why shia labeouf?

good looking? apparently, nope.
hot body? err nope.
funny? kinda but not really.
kinda kiddo? yes, but that doesnt count as a must have attitude.
tall? no i guess?
beautiful eyes? no! haha apa aku merepek ni?

so, i wonder why he always there in my dreams?? anyone? it is well acceptable when it comes to robert pattinson ( urghh no need to explain u guys know why), johnny deep (duh he's macho kot especially time teen choice award), justin timberlake (ever watch he dance?omg!) and the list goes on. but for this shia, man. i dont know why. last year, ive watched the movie transformers 3 times in a row. 1st time, excited gila. 2nd time, 30 minutes tengok dah start pergi toilet lah beli popcorn lah kat luar. 3rd time, halfway movie dah tidur. but still, the transformers is the best movie of the decade! and i also watched most of shia's movie including disturbia and apa tah lagi satu lupa the title. he's a great actor and should win the oscar!:) way to go shia!

*i hope i get to watch shia again kat pavilion this 23rd eventhough the premier is on the 24th. finger cross!

one day on the road.

2009-06-16T15:39:00.005+08:00

pergi a famosa on saturday, canceled.
end up pergi piramid dinner at friday's.

pergi a famosa on monday, canceled.

pergi sunway lagoon on monday, canceled.
end up pergi

mid valley, tengok drag me to hell. early bird tickets for us sebab sampai mid at10! 1st time in my life ever. and tak ada sorang pon yang q nak beli tix movie. sangaaaat weird haha. if not better tengok kat signature :) yela, kau nak ke q macam haram berapa kali u turn tah just nak beli tix sit paling dekat dengan screen pukul 10 malam padahal time tu baru pukul 3? but the girl yang jaga counter tu macam agak gelabah je *nak cepat padahal orang tak ada. lagi weird. then pegi beli donuts manis untuk alas perut.

then off to pj. having lunch at rajoo's. total, rm24. hello, mamak je kot mahal gle pejadah. padahal sorang je yang makan aku tengok je *im on a very strict diet!.

then, off to erm mont kiara. ingat nak pergi cari shoping mall baru yang dekat dengan tol jalan duta but then tiba- tiba sampai kat plaza hartamas. ok, layan. jalan- jalan sikit, ok bosan. jom blah.

then pergi damansara nak lepak rasta. ok, lepak rasta pukul 4 ptg?? xbest. no no, u turn nak pergi the curve. tiba- tiba teringat nak pergi cuppacakes 10 tahun dah xpergi :) ok, xingat jalan lagi haha. *ya, im really bad with directions. ok, patah balik pergi the curve. dah sampai, "eh cam bosan je the curve. nak watpe kat cini? ou la jom?". then off to ou, for makan again.

then, balik rumah separuh mati dah penat gila kaki sakit nak mati pakai heels 4.5 inches aku adoi! sampai- sampai terus celeb birthday my mom makan cheese cake and nak muntah, great!

so the moral of the story is,

jangan gatal- gatal cancel plan bila kau dah plan sebulan before.
jangan keluar jalan bila hari tu birthday mak kau.*agak kurang ajar pergi jalan- jalan that day patotnya duduk rumah urut kaki muka tangan badan mak aku haha

p/s: malam semalam aku tidur 15 jam sebab ganti tidur 2 jam je the night before and penat sangat sebab merepek- repek je jalan tah mana- mana.

aku memang peduli

2009-06-15T03:11:00.003+08:00

ive been following this blog since like forever. i kind of like his thought about his surroundings. he always have this extremely unacceptable opinion about things and he is not afraid to put it in words and let the world read. sometimes, he likes to post pictures into his writing. but then, things have gone pretty weird when he stops writing and just let the pictures do the talk. no more thoughts and whatsoever. just pictures of hot bitches in clubs. like, pejadah nya lah kau pegi stop writing. u are wayyyy better than that bila kau have ur own opinion about things. ya, i do adore u sebab kau amik gambar semua lawa- lawa, well edited, with a perfect angle. tapi kalau setakat gambar, err, well, dude, u have to start writing again!* xtau nak ckp apa considering blog tu bukan bapak aku punya hahaha..

blink blink sekali dua kali uhhhh!

2009-06-15T02:56:00.004+08:00

it is almost 3 am and i still cannot sleep :( this guy named *ali whom ive known like 5 minutes ago told me that i am having insomnia! i guess he is right. ive been trying to sleep for like 2 hours and i still couldnt. oh no! tommorow ill be going to a famosa safari according to the original plan. but then, ive reschedule and we'll be going to sunway lagoon due to some reasons. well, ive to wake up at 8 esok and masak nasi goreng for him!:) everything seems prepared just tinggal nak goreng sahaja wee! ou ya, im a good cook *perasan haha. and i cant get rid of my old habit. i keep melepaskan geram to whoever *i mean strangers la yg gatal nak berkenalan whatsoever, yang came to me and being polite bla9. this guy kan just added me up yesterday and then tak pasal chat2 lak kat fb saying this and that. quote, "im proudness to be kelantanist. but i change to kL now, agreed?".. like wtf?? and i replied quote," dude, lk i ever gv a shit??"..pap! cari kat friendlist *mat bla9, delete terus. i think i should approve those yang i kenal je kan? or should i filter those in my friendlist?hmm.

*insomnia by craig david, nice!

mrsm kuala klawang negeri sembilan.

2009-06-10T23:06:00.003+08:00

the best high school moment for me would be when i was in mjsc kuala klawang for sure! tapi agak bongok la jugak for mjsc kk sebab tak ada upper form ( form 4 and form 5). duh! if ada, it would be the best school in the world la kot. everything was that perfect for me. i mean, friends, teachers, dewan selara, class, prep, cube, and even the rules! percaya tak that i really enjoyed riadah so much? playing netball up on hill is so much fun. and especially time form 3, kitorang the whole 3ik main rounders pakai kayu. and then patah sebab afiq pukul kuat gila then ganti dengan tiang katil (besi). siapa tah pegi pukul bola tenis tu jauh gila sampai hilang hahahahaha! not forgotten, main kejar- kejar (form 2), naik kereta sorong yang orang buat pembinaan tu(form 2), blackout (form 2 lagi) and so much more. pergi ds usha senior ehem! haha. but that was then. well, i wished i could turn back time because that school sangat awesome kot. talentime, nasyid lah, berlakon lah, assembly, stokin. i hope, one day we should really plan the reunion well. kita pegi overnight kat kk and bring back the old memories heee.

*miss kk a lot!

im considering options

2009-06-08T23:35:00.002+08:00

do you like ever been in this situation where you have to reconsider those options that you have chose? i made a decision but then, something came up. and now im not sure weather i have to follow the flow or try on this other option. well i dont wanna take any granted no more because i know what im about to get in the end that is, broken hearted. but, thought back, i will live in this condition where i felt sorry for myself for not able to confront for something that i really want and ponder for such a long time. well, for sure people around me would not be happy if i take that another option now. but this is for myself right. i keep wondering al this years should i or shouldnt i go for it and now, it is in front of me and i can do nothing about it. well, ok berapa banyak kali well dah ni haha. ok, im not that risk taker anymore so im gonna wait for it like i did before. and i hope that, things will be just fine and ill be ok :)

not funny not interesting not pretty not decent enough

2009-06-07T00:46:00.004+08:00

maybe i should walk away and never turn back
maybe i should let him down like ive no feeling at all
maybe i should leave everyone behind and walk away
maybe i should through everything in my room away
maybe i should run up the mountain and scream my lungs out
maybe i should just sit doing nothing in my room waiting for a prince to marry me
maybe i should go out party tonight
maybe i should cry and never stop
maybe i should suicide now
maybe i should brake up
maybe i should jump into the river
maybe i should slap someone
maybe i should broke into someone's house and got busted
maybe i should got drunk
maybe i should get back with my exbf
maybe i should fly to las vegas tonight and get wasted
maybe i should smack the laptop
maybe i should remove my facebook account
maybe i should stay single for 10 years!*sound good.really good.
maybe i should get a hot boyfriend
maybe i should laugh out loud about everything
maybe i should be a model
maybe i should drive to genting now
maybe i should just let it go and move on again like i always did
maybe i should urghhhhhh!phuket thailand!

but that doesnt change the fact that i am not happy now.

not happy

2009-06-07T00:39:00.002+08:00

i tried fucking hard not to let myself down again. i dont realise that ive been putting myself into the same fucking condition until today, yeah its the same feeling sheena. wake up! ive made a promise to myself and i broke it. i dont wanna get hurt anymore please lord. i beg u :(